THE DUELS OF NOFAP: NO PMO TOURNAMENT | OPEN FOR ALL

I fell also...again. Couldn't sleep because of insomnia, going crazy with urges. At least it can be the start of a better streak again.

 

Let's fight, I am tired of losing.

 

Don't stress and change that mindset. You will win.

 

I looked at myself today in a picture and in the mirror and realised I have lost myself, I think I know why.

The most success in this journey I have had is when I was stress free, not feeling guilty if I lose, just always positive. Having this stressfree mindset drove me to the highest point, the discipline was already there in the 5 daily prayers so it was just a matter of counting. Everytime I fail it's because I am thinking about it, I am stressed and not in the calm state and this is what kills. So this links to my change in appearance.

Before when I was care free with a girlfriend, I had a 6 pack and was really muscular. I was really popular too in my school but I was care free that I was. I never tried to impress anybody, I just focused on studies and that was it. Now the mindset changed to changing the world, which is a good goal, but can't be done overnight so it is killing my energy. I feel more lonely with no girlfriend too, in reality it's because I lack self esteem even though I am confident. So from today, I know I might fail and God knows that too, but God also knows I'm trying so he will forgive me if I fall. I just need to focus on myself and my studies, that is where the success lies for me.

Maybe this is different to what you usually hear from me, but the truth is we have limited control over ourselves and sure we can control ourselves easily if we wanted to, but we are living in a crazy time where we have full access to what our ancestors couldn't have dreamed of having. Do you not think they would fail to, when the system is designed for you to fail? We can keep stumbling, yet we carry on always. Some people have more control than others, so don't compare yourself to someone who is at a different level and stage of the journey. Don't worry about it too much. All that matters is you enjoy the day and try your best to enjoy whatever it brings, because this life is limited anyway. Again the discipline is the prayer. So don't be annoyed, angry. Think logically, not emotionally, you are higher than an animal but you have animal instincts. No one is better than you and you are better than no one, just relax and work on being good to people and to yourself and you will win eventually.