It’s the second time reading. Last year I listened to the audio Book I first read it about 20 years ago
Day 16 complete. Yr 2 Gryffindor class. Yesterday, I thrice fought the urge/temptation to look at a couple of compromising website. At one point I even entered the address, but quickly closed it, got up and walked away. Well I closed it of my own volition, but was immediately interrupted by something that needed me to leave my desk. A "saved by the bell" sort of situation really. It's a bit ridiculous how easy it is to slip and fall the exact same way, so many times.
Hogwarts - Year 1 (Day 7) for me. Took a quiz and I'm 39% Ravenclaw and 24% Gryffindor. Ravenclaw it is for me! Now I will start reading HP 6!
Day 17 complete. Yr 2 Gryffindor class. Not quite slogging on, not quite sailing through, but getting there all the same
Okay. Day 0. Hospital wing. I am making it my goal to update here every single day. I need to be a better support to you all and I feel bad for slacking off!
I messed up last night. To make a short story shorter, i stumbled upon some P while cleaning out my drive yesterday. And, unfortunately, I looked at it. Yes I deleted it, but after looking at it for some time. And that counts as a "flat on my face" fall. I should have torn myself away immediately but I did not. At least not fast enough. It's disheartening to restart this challenge, especially when I'm 17 days successful, my longest streak, but those are the rules I have chosen to live by, so here we go again. I am very proud of my progress and I am not demoralized, just determined to do it better this time. Day 0 in the Hospital Wing!
Late night. Took a long nap. Wife asleep. These are the vulnerable times. But I will stay focused on purity. Fix my eyes on the prize. Took a really long nap, so my sleep schedule is a bit messed up. Might read some Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince before turning in. Going strong! Let's go!
Day 1 in the Hospital Wing complete. Over the last couple of days, I've been trying to figure out how I ended up falling while being so vigilant. Yes, I had urges, but not so bad that I couldn't have managed to ignore/suppress... I had done it before, just a day earlier in fact. I was being vigilant. So why did I slip up? I think I've come to a realization: I was in a weakened state of mind. I couldn't recognize it at the time... this is only happening in hindsight because I feel like proper crap today. It's been slowly building over the last couple of weeks. So, I believe that's why I fell to my usual "coping mechanism" i.e Prawn. There's not much I can do other than keep pushing ahead to feel better mentally as I also push ahead with my goals. One step at a time. Stay vigilant.
