THE INTERSTELLAR CHALLENGE !

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  1. Mathman1994

    Mathman1994 Fapstronaut

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    Day 29 no P
    Day 24 no MO

    I spent the weekend with my Grandma and her boyfriend and it was pretty relaxing though somewhat stressful as my Grandma is not the easiest woman to live with let alone spend a weekend with. It was still fun, and there was a moment of boredom where I peeked at P-subs for less than 30 seconds before I thought to myself, what am I fighting for if not to NoFap. I did not even touch myself. I just logged off in a hurry and took a nap as I was tired, it was rainy, and I was on vacation. Additionally, the place I was vacationing was the place I binged porn 12.5 years ago while spending time with my Grandma and sisters after my Grandpa died and I did not want a repeat of the shame I felt, so I stopped, and slept, then got up, hung out with my Grandma, her boyfriend and my uncle and his girlfriend, before going to dinner. My uncle insulted my generation as being lazy and entitled. I took issue with that, as though many are, not everyone is, and he did correct himself, but I was quick to point out that the Greatest Generation said the same thing about his generation.
    Anyway, I am still clean and in a little more than a week, I will beat my previous record of 31 days no PMO.

    Best,
    Mathman1994
     
  2. Relapsed again, resetting streak :'D
    main cause was horniness i think, i binged for a while but decided to stop.
     
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  3. Mathman1994

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    Day 30 no P and in 2.25 hours, a month no P.
    Day 25 almost 26 no MO

    I am feeling kind of gray right now. I have to have a conversation with the woman I have been seeing. She is one of my best friends, and when we hang out we cuddle and hold hands, but she does not want to say we are in a relationship because she is afraid of losing me as her best friend. Problem is that this ambiguity is straining my side of the friendship with her, and I do not want to keep engaging in the physical touch and emotional intimacy unless we are in a romantic relationship because it is stressing me out wanting something without knowing if she wants it too. She said "it's complicated", but it really isn't in my opinion. We both have feelings for each other, but I am moving to a new city in August, and I do not want this ambiguity when I move. I either want to go back to just being friends with not physical touching, or declare that we are in a committed relationship and that I am dating her and seeing her on weekends while I am in grad school. I cannot keep having this intimacy with no promise of a romantic relationship because I then feel like I have to be loyal to her even if she does not see it that way. It will be a tough conversation, but one we need to have. Either we are in a relationship, or we are not, but I cannot keep doing the "it's complicated" for my own mental and emotional health.

    In other news, I have not peeked at P-subs (let alone P) since Sunday, and despite my depression, I am enjoying that aspect of my life. I cannot wait to reach 30 days no PMO and 32 days no PMO as well which will make my current streak my longest streak.

    Best,
    Mathman1994
     
  4. You got this dude, all the best for ur convo with her. It's gonna be alright :D it's great that youve not looked at p or p subs for so long and congrats for ur new streak record :emoji_tada::emoji_tada:
     
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  5. Welcome Aboard! Glad you made it to NoFap :)
    And yeah Interstellar is one of Master Pieces where you can appreciate the blend of Arts and Science together flowing across the timeline. Each time I see the hospital scene where Cooper meets his daughter literally I feel emotional.

    Stay Strong! See you soon as a Drone Catcher;)
     
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  6. It’s my pleasure and honour to walk with you guys!
    Still we have places to visit… This is the time and we all here for a reason and happy that we’re in it together :)
     
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  7. Day 20 Reaching Endurance

    Glad that I became Astronaut again. I think I somehow overcome the chaser effect.

    Stat strong all!
     
  8. Mathman1994

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    Day 32 no P
    Day 27 no MO

    I talked to my romantic interest last night, and she felt similar that we either need to define our relationship, or just be friends. However, after I slept on it, I woke up this morning hoping that she chooses to just remain friends for now. I really care about her, and yet, I am not quite ready to take the step I thought I was. I am moving to another part of the state and though we will only be an hour/hour and a half apart, it is not something I am sure I will be able to handle. Plus we are at different stages in life, and as much as I adore her, I am not sure our long term goals line up, I was just blinded by my affection for her to acknowledge that there are certain things that we disagree on. For instance, I want kids and she does not, and while that is a ways down the road, I don't want to commit to such a relationship that could lead to marriage, if we do not have the same goals. It is really hard, and I messaged her my thoughts on not being ready, and though I know she will understand, I am still feeling like I am breaking up with her (in this not declared relationship) and it sucks.

    In other news, I have been having a lot of cravings to use porn/masturbate and I know that this experience today makes me more vulnerable. So after I submit this, I am logging off, taking my night meds, and then reading before bed.

    Best,
    Mathman1994
     
  9. Try not to overthink the long-term in a relationship just yet. Well, not about children anyhow.
    You are both young and things like that just sort of happen in the right time. You don't need to plan it!
    Focus on just being the best man you can be and what your doing now will help you continue to grow.
    You've already made tremendous progress and growth. Just keep being you man. You're doing great.
     
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  10. DRAGON_

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    @hoping_cannon. Can I join?
    I am on Day 1.
    Never knew this challenge existed. Otherwise would have joined earlier. I was on nice 50+ day streak 2 days ago but fell to strong urges. So I would really like to join this challenge (Interstellar is a masterpiece and playing a part in it is just awesome).:)
     
  11. Day 1 Back to Farmer
    Happy that I made to 20 days in short gap. I Will again come back strong to cross my previous streak record.

    Stay strong!
     
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  12. Welcome Aboard!
     
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  13. Mathman1994

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    Day 28

    Had a very, very close call just now. I don't know what I was thinking either. I was reading about Pokemon and then I was going to log off my laptop and go to bed when the thought "why don't you just take a peek. It cannot hurt." Obviously it can hurt and I did peek at images, but I stopped before too long and came on here instead. I am so close to elf, and I am happy to say that I came on here to report instead of going into the bathroom to PMO. It really crossed my mind to do that though. I thought, I already peeked, so why not look a while longer. And then the next thought would be, well I looked longer, so it is a relapse, therefore, might as well get off to it. And though it took a lot of will power, I did not look longer. And I did not PMO. I am shaking like crazy and have serious urges to go back on there, so I am going to post this, and then actually go to bed. Too dangerous and I violated my rule of no internet after 7/8pm (it is now 10:45PM). Anyway, I am staying accountable. If I peek again in the next few days, I will have to drastically re-evaluate my recovery, and whether I should reset. I am not going to reset now, for one because if I do in this state of vulnerability, I will not just peek again, I will binge. I do not want to binge, so I am going to go to bed and get up tomorrow in a new light.

    Best,
    Mathman1994
     
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    Well, I messed up. I could not get the images out of my mind and my will power gave in. I PMO'd to a 20 second clip. It was so quick, but now I am starting over at day 0 Farmer
     
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  16. Don't make a big deal about it. Get back up you have not lost all the amazing progress you have made. Simply a speed bump in the road also an opportunity for you to see how pitiful an excuse pmo is.
    It didn't satisfy this time as usual.
    Keep walking!
     
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  17. Keep walking brother. We are all still making great progress. I'll be praying for you both.
     
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  18. Mathman1994

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    Thank you!
    Just 11 more hours to Day 1
    I got up late this morning (11:30AM), and I am eating my unsalted homemade trail mix. I am thinking of going on a semi-fast for the next few days. That is, 1 meal and a snack along with plenty of water. I will also try to work out every day to every other day, and take a cold shower after work out. I feel gross right now to be honest, so I am going to dance to some AC/DC, and then take a cold shower. After that, I am going to plan my schedule for next week, and then take an internet detox day. (I will need my internet for tonight at 6/7PM to play D&D with my friends, and I will need to remain on discord and the D&D tabletop website the entire night as in the past I have fished while waiting for my turn. I would normally not play in my state, but I have not played in a couple months with them, and I am not going to let them down again. However, it will be perfect time to practice urge surfing should the need arise.

    I will post my schedule for the next week tomorrow morning probably, but until then, I will remain vigilant of the chaser and not engage in any fantasies that may arise.

    Best,
    Mathman1994
     
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  20. Day 28. Have reached endurance. We will be departing for the wormhole in two days. Stay strong.
     
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