The Lord of the Rings Challenge

Hey, you are over 30, excellent!!

 

And is it everything ok with your father?

 

Day 8 - Uruk – Hai (You feel stronger and faster but you´re still a slave to the PMO ring. A desire arises to break free from it´s chains)

I am so tired, I need to sleep. Yesterday night I woke up with asthma and I had to nebulize. Almost no time to think in urges or PMO but the thoughts always try to penetrate my mind.

Train Hard.

 

Checking in, keeping the stress at bay by being productive at work.

@Redemptionisrequired -- So sorry for the disappointment you feel right now. That was an awesome streak to break. Glad you recognize that PMO will never be a fulfilling answer to anything that ails you. Come back soon and keep sharing your wisdom and strength with us.

“Your time will come. You will face the same Evil, and you will defeat it.” – Arwen

 

You know what you have to do ranger; I won't lecture a man who has ventured far closer to the mountain then I ever have. I know we'll meet again and we'll complete the journey. We'll wield the blade of kings to victory!

 

Checking in.

This week has been a crazy roller-coaster of ups and downs, today i had almost 0 urges, and if you remember i said that yesterday was one of the hardest days of my journey so far. Looks like there's calm before the storm, but there's also calm after the storm. This is nice.

I'm saddened by @Redemptionisrequired fall recently, i think most of us members of the fellowship felt the same. We cannot let his relapse go in vain, we gotta learn by his experience and get stronger, we gotta pick ourselves up and fight! Do not forget, maintaining constant mindfulness is a PRIORITY. Keep your mind clear from impure thoughts, they'll come to you, just accept them and leave them be!

We gotta be here, stronger than ever for when Redemption comes back. If one falls each and every one of us falls, we must keep our duty to reassure that our fellowship remains strong against demons and enemy invaders.

Remind your brothers of their duties, remind your brothers of the actions they have to take in order to achieve success!

As always,

Strenght & Honor!

 

Passed the first round of interviews. But PMO afterwards... so... not too good, not too bad.

But I have to get my shit together and stop relapsing

 

Day 389

 

Day 69

I was healed today.

 

Day 0. Reset to MO. Not in the mood for a huge post. Feels like I'm doing everything "right" and still getting nowhere. I can only pile up so many mortifications and alterations to my routine. There's always a new loophole as soon as I manage to close one.

 

Day 1: Orc (The spell of porn is strong in you)



I am pleased to announce I have become an Orc! Got all the things I intended to done yesterday. Keeping up fine today, but I didn't really push myself and I know it. I still wasted a lot of time. I got back to doing push-ups, kept up with the dishes and called my Grandpa which is good though.

Tomorrow I really need to go shopping though and review a webinar. I will have to make a note of that.

 

Day 15 - Hobbit @RiseToGreatness

 

5 days
Girls checked out: 2
Coffees: 2
Video games: 45 min
Cold shower: yes
A few days after my last relapse and I'm starting to get horny again. I need to get strong so I won't relapse next time I have a chance to.
Praying for all the fellows that reset today. I wish that your next streak will be even longer

 

@Redemptionisrequired you are our hero and inspiration, your name is honored among us. You don’t need to leave anywhere to be stronger, you are one of us. It’s not like you will be walking around the middle earth, you will be walking in mordor and it’s rough alone. Let’s walk together and get all the feelings sorted out together, it would be beneficial for you and the rest of us. Hope to see you again

Day 87 complete.

after I deleted instagram I searched for sexy girls on youtube once. Didn’t watch anything. So I will be deleting youtube until I get stronger. At times when desire for women (just any kind of interaction with them(because that’s what I want now), not only sex) is strong, it’s great to have a wife, because she is a real person that can love you back.

 

Day 36..

 

Day 382 no PMO.

@Redemptionisrequired I’m sorry you slipped up buddy but I know you will be back in the fight soon enough. We will be here when you are ready. Don’t beat yourself up too much. We have all fallen many times… this site wouldn’t even exist if this was easy and we didn’t all struggle. This does not define who you are but just that you are human like the rest of us.

 

Day 0 again - how are you guys dealing with urges when you're gettin sick?
If catched a cold and I need to stay in bed much. For me its more difficult when I cant do exercise and cold showers regularly^^

 

Day 0.

 

Day 7 done!
Working in my self discipline to have control of myself. Keep strong my brothers!