The Lord of the Rings Challenge

Day 72

 

Yeah indeed, something like a dozen pages disappeared.
Security breach?

 

daily checking in
Many urges , but i see the strategy and the motivation and disappear those feelings.

 

NO urges today because I am ill. But they will return when I get better. Just preparing for them by doing what my ancestors did.
Meditating.

 

Day 54, I feel so grateful!
Just need to focus more on my workouts to gain more muscle

 

Words of the liars are ,but the words of those who are firmly set in truth are like diamond cutters and creating the world.

 

When the urge comes offer it as the sacrifice to your God by chanting the Name .

How much muscle do you want to gain?

 

Day 17! The urges are strong today! It seems like once again they are at it's strongest when possibility lies ahead. I pray that I can return still worthy tomorrow!

 

Yeah bro , I had an urge to cut off my ear too ,but NoFap made me rather urge-proof !

 

Day 27. Some things to do today as well but everything it’s fine , no urges or when they come, to think in the reboot materials it’s helping me so much. Keep it up !!

 

It is indeed ! It's something like automatic writing. Let's call it automatic painting! I thought it might say something about me which consciously I'm not aware of...

 

Checking in. I'm sick today due to the covid vaccine shot I got yesterday. However, it's just a mild fever, some headache, soar throat, etc. so I have still been able to go outside for walks in the sun. Here is a nice excerpt from a podcast about addiction I listened to while walking:



Finding Your Passion Starts with Boredom & Action Steps:

Stop looking for your passion and instead look around right where you are. Stop distracting yourself, look around right where you are, and see what needs to be done. So not 'what do I want do to?' but what is the work that needs to be done? And more importantly, it doesn't have to be some grandiose work. Like, does the garbage need to be taken out? Is there some garbage on your neighbours lawn that someone threw there, that you could actually bend over and pick up and put into the garbage can? Look around you. There is so much work that needs to be done that nobody wants to do.

That is really, really important, and if we all did that, I really think the world would be a much better place. And this is what people who have severe addiction, who get into recovery, realize. They're like, it's not about me and my will and what I'm going to will in my life or in the world. It's about looking around what needs to be done. What is the work that I am called to do in this moment? Which also is incredibly freeing because I don't have to search for the perfect thing. There's a lot of burden now on young people, that they have to find that perfect thing, and until they've found that perfect thing, they're going to be miserable. You don't have to do that. Look at the life you were given, look at the people around you, look at the jobs that present themselves to you and do that job simply and honorably, one day at a time, with a kind of humility.

I think this is really what's so striking to me about the wisdom of people in recovery. There's this incredible humility that comes out of that experience. You feel so broken, so ashamed, but you pick yourself up one day at a time and you build a life that's around what can I do right in this moment, that might benefit another person, and thereby benefit me?

Spoiler: Daily tasks

1. Physical Exercise. (Done; lots of walking.)
2. Meditation. (Done; slightly more than 10 min).
3. Study about reboot. (Done; listened to a podcast about addiction.)
4. Eating in moderation. (Done; two reasonable meals within a 6 hour window).

 

Great work! I agree with @Gallade_Templar. I feel that it has a Starry Night feel to it The red makes me think of a hand which in my mind resembles and urge and the green is holding it back. Thank you for sharing your art!

 

day 81-warrior. I feel happy and great. I channel my sexual energy towards school. it's a nice feeling to get my work done. urges are strong, but I have the mental willpower. I keep strong.