I needed to read this, I personally got too cocky after some good streaks and now I'm back to relapsing every 4-7 days. I thought I had it all under control, I was dead wrong. I understand in this community we try to be nice and tell people "hey don't beat yourself up over it" and there is some truth to that, but it allows for complacency, so with strong and complicated urges of this type of addiction, a little complacency is more than enough to fail. Discipline and motivation is key here, but more so the discipline, because the motivation will naturally fall in place once you're disciplined.
It’s 1:23 am and I’m having urges. Firstly I am not and will not touch it let alone edge or M. Secondly I’m logged on here to read posts and let the moment pass! I’d never look at P. That’s gone for good