The Second Super Saiyan Challenge

Day 71 - Super Saiyan 2

 

Day 333 - Another Palindrome
Day 9 - without wet dreams

 

On day 49, check in.
The last couple of days have been awfull. Washed up in anger. The family is making my life difficult, nothing that I can't normally handle, but this time it was too hard. Feeling hopeless and angry all the time. Going early to sleep so I don't go into automatic coping mode. Still have to bare with this for the rest of the day.

 

Day 10

So glad I didn’t relapse yesterday. Now I feel more energized than usual and like I can do anything.

 

Day 4 complete - Krillin

 

Day 72 - Super Saiyan 2

 

Day 102!

 

Day 343
Day 10 - without wet dreams

 

Day 50 check in. Managed to keep it together over the weekend.
I finished Russell Brand's book today, wouldn't recommend it; too much filling. Bottom line is a book about the 12 steps program that tries to cover all addiction spectrum. In my experience when something tries to solve all the problems, either doesn't solve anything or is so complicated no one knows how to use it.

Anyway, next I'll be reading another book on PMO addiction I've picked up in one of the threads here. I've seen that it helps actively reading / researching because it keeps me focused. Big challenge this end of the week, I'll be alone again for 4 days, my addict self is looking forward to testing me.

Stay strong everyone, one day at a time!

 

Day 11

Feeling weak and tired today. My body must process caffeine differently. I had a double espresso iced coffee 24 hours ago, and after a few hours I crashed hard and I feel like it drained the life out of me. Even today I feel so tired and weak because of it. Nobody I else I’ve spoken to seems to be affected like this. I’m battling 2 addictions at once, porn and caffeine

 

Day 5 - Krillin

 

Day 103!

 

Day 73 - Super Saiyan 2

Keeping this brief. Missed jury duty + urges (medium - high urges) because of this I was considering a relapse. Yeah, it would have been due to frustration because if I don't follow up on my missed jury duty then I have to pay fine of $1500 or possibly jail time if I don't pay. Urges came from fantasizing about some woman and fasting as well. That's it. Amazing, how I would resort to that if I wasn't strong enough. Fighting and holding on.

Saiyan out

 

relapsed yesterday at day 7 but without P
Feeling not so bad

relapsing with MO at day 7 is better than relapsing with P at day 300

 

Day 335
Day 11 - without wet dreams

 

One day at a time, you can do this. Aim for two weeks this time.

If you compare you practice to working out (for the brain), missing a day after a year of working out every day will not make a difference, but if you miss too many days at the beginning of your work out it can affect your success significantly.

Too many false starts can lead to loosing hope of ever winning this fight. That's why I think it is better to have longer streaks with occasional relapses, ideally none, than a long chain of short streaks.

Stay strong @sufferingmen07, you can do this. Many have done it before you, you can do it as well.

 

Day 12

Didn’t get much sleep and haven’t been following healthy habits, but still feel very awake and energetic today. I always forget how powerful semen retention is. I always thought I had less energy than everyone else cause there was something wrong with me, but maybe it was the PMO addiction all along.

 

Day 6 complete - Krillin

 

Day 74 - Super Saiyan 2


Ready to fight like Son Gohan with SSJ2 form.
Just like this young brother here now. Feeling like this and replicating and sharing this as he did. A taste of my testimony later which will be later on for a while now if I decide to do it.
#123

1 Peter 2: 11
Dearly beloved, I beseech you as strangers and pilgrims, abstain from fleshly lusts, which war against the soul