Trying to start NoFap again!

Thanks mate
Come to think of it, from what you've told me you're almost impossible to trigger (not that I was trying to do that), so perhaps I shouldn't be beating myself up.
Not that I'm going to buy one, but how much does a Fleshlight cost, and what does it feel like ?

 

What I meant was what did it feel like before your present troubles ?

 

If I'd had one of those things when I was in my amph addiction, I'd probably have worn it out in no time at all ..lol. I've seen vids of men using them (there isn't much I haven't seen) and they go into a complete fucking frenzy. Perhaps the vids are sponsored by the makers.
When did you last take amph, and how long after you stopped it did your sex problems start? My own experience after stopping it was that I had an intense nostalgia for the hyper-stimulated fapping sessions. It didn't stop me wanking, but it was months before I started really enjoying it again.

 

Yeahh, I could do with some cuddles too. A couple of hours would be wonderful. There's a girl who works in the supermarket who I could cuddle all day. Perhaps I should stay away from that place.

 

PLEASE be very careful with GHB, Spikey. It killed a friend of a friend of mine.

 

I can't ask her for her number - lol - she's about eight years younger than me. She'd probably think "dirty old sod" ..

 

Yes, you're completly right about that, mate, but I can't help it at the moment, because the way I've been living has screwed my confidence, really screwed it. All I've done for years - and I know it's pathetic - is live in a sexual fantasy world, fuelled by porn. I think I probably need therapy to break out of it, but it goes against my nature to ask for it. Women must find you attractive if you've had lots of dates and lots of sex, but I've never felt that that's the case with me. I'm not ugly, or so I've been told lol - when I was at uni, one girl told me she thought I was good looking - and neither am I fat or scruffy. I'm quite well educated, but that means fuck all these days. The problem is my personality, or, rather, lack of it. I'm sure I'm a bore. I can tell you though, mate, that there is not an iota of self-pity in my personality, whatever this message might suggest. I think it's because I'm so happy in my own company that I've ended up in all this shit. I think I'm selfish too. No, I KNOW I am. After all, I wouldn't have turned my back on other people and spent years jerking myself insensate if I wasn't selfish.
Sorry to go on like this, Spikey, but I wanted to tell you a little more about myself, you Babe-Magnet you !! hahahaaaaaa

 

I know it's a ridiculous thought, but yes, if it was possible I'd give you 50 + of my libido to make you a happier man. You come across as a kind and thoughtful guy, if you don't mind me saying so. Please remember that I'm English, and that we're proverbially uptight.
There's a lot of wisdom in your first paragraph. Have you been reading about Buddhism ? As far as I know, but I might be wrong, the idea that the self is an illusion is a Buddist idea. Unfortunately, it doesn't FEEL like that from day to day, but it does after a dose of LSD.

If women are grabbing your dick and buying you drinks, you MUST be a Babe-Magnet ! Mind you, I can understand it becoming a problem in the end. But even so, you must have had lots of fun.

 

I meant to write, if women 'were' not 'are' ..

 

That was an interesting post, very interesting. I've heard of Eckhart Tolle, but I've never read anything by him.

I want to try to make you laugh. When I was 17, I met a very hot girl the same age as me. We were like a couple of rabbits. We did it all over the place: elevators, car parks, the grounds of her school, behind a friend's back while he was playing the piano, fields, gardens, my mum's place when she was in the next room (risky !), her place when her parents were downstairs.. the list goes on and on !

 

Thanks for keeping me company today, Spikey Cloud, I really appreciated it. I've got some sleeping tablets (zopiclone), and I'll take a couple in a minute. BTW, I must have sent you that password-like message when I was drifting off on them last night. Keep your end up, mate