Wet Lucid Dream

I have been trying to lucid dream for a while now. I told myself that I would not have sex in the lucid dream, and that I was actually doing this to stop myself from having wet dreams. But that is exactly what I did.

I want to say before this that I have been struggling with furry pornography before. I do not know if it is porn induced or not. (It probably is.) I hope to get rid of this fetish.

In my dream, I met someone in VR. Then, they appeared in real life. This inconsistency made me lucid. I decided to try to meditate to increase my lucidity. After that, I summoned a white canine furry. She was in another room, and I dragged her to my room. She seemed to be asleep, which is really bad.

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Then, I held her up in front of me by the arms and rubbed her vagina against my penis. It did not penetrate though, possibly because I knew that I shouldn't be doing this.

I had ejaculated in real life from this dream, and I do not think that it was only precum.

I want to know if this is a relapse or not. I am on the side of yes, but I really don't know. I would also like opinions on if this reinforces my fetish or not.

I also think that it's pretty pathetic that if I could do anything, that is would I would do. I think that it really says something about me as a person. I feel really bad about this. I especially regret the fact that the furry was asleep, even though I did not decide that; my subconscious did.

 

I will reset my counter. I like your idea on just focusing on improving, and not worrying on the details too much. I will also make sure to ask my subconscious to stop myself from having this fetish. I think that if you ask your subconscious mind in a dream something, it could have a powerful effect. It is kind of like hacking your brain. I will need to test this hypothesis though. I will definitely improve my lucid dreaming skills and techniques. I am kind of disappointed in myself as well, because I was avoiding triggers really well, and I thought that I could go far.

 

A furry is something like this:

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It is an interesting situation, because these sort of things cannot exist in real life; they can only exist in the dream world. I am not even that interested in being in the fandom that much.

 

Lucid Dreaming is a skill like any other. You have to get better at it with time and effort. It is somewhat like learning a language. There are no easy shortcuts. One of the best things you can do is to keep a dream journal to learn how your dreams and mind function. Another thing about lucid dreaming is questioning the reality that is presented to you. This is why reality checks and being in a lucid mindset is important as well. Lucid Dream Portal is a good YouTube channel if you would like to learn more. You might be able to program some things into your subconscious via lucid dreaming. I have just started a few months ago. Lucid dreaming is not easy and will take a long time to master, but I am determined.

I have had a problem with furries for a long time. This is might be because when I was younger, I used to hate furries a lot. I think hating on anyone for a hobby is stupid now, but I do still have a few critiques for the Furry Fandom. I watched a lot of stuff about them to cringe, so I was exposed to them. I did not watch furry porn right away though. I slowly got more close to the genre. At first I watched catgirl porn, but then I watched full on furry porn. Maybe this has nothing to do with my past with them at all. I honestly do not know if it is porn induced or not. Interestingly, I can see right through real life porn. With that, I instantly see how bad it is. I have been exclusively been watching furry porn for years now.

 

Yeah, furries tend to be interested a lot in pornography. The subreddit r/yiff has more subscribers than r/furry, and furries are also slightly more likely to prefer pornographic furry content than non-pornographic furry content. (The source is found on Furscience; I can't have links in my posts yet.) Many young people join, so this an even bigger problem. It can also provide a community for people and make them feel safe though.

Anyway, my furry fetish might not be innate, because I don't remember being especially interested in them at as a kid. But, my interests have not changed for a long time, and if it was just a passing thing, I should have moved on to something else by now. I also went into it gradually. There are both sides to the argument.

About lucid dreaming too, you can do anything, having sex with a furry. Again, it is an interesting situation because this can only happen in the dream world. I could only live out this fetish in my dreams. (I'm not planning to do anything with it at all though.) You can fly, teleport, create anything, and even become an animal. The possibilities are endless.

 

Huh, this thread got a lot of comments quickly. Some of these comments were like a slap in the face, but I think that is what I needed. It's good motivation. I have already resent my counter, like I said before. I cannot change my goal now, because I would have to reset my counter again. I will resist all thoughts and interactions about furries going further. I will also try to use lucid dreaming to make my fetish go away. But, if I do relapse this way again, I might stop trying to lucid dream for a while.

Christoph104, you are forgiven.

 

Well, I guess I was interested, but it was more hate than anything. I did think about them a lot, but that was because I didn't like them. I do not hate anyone now. Maybe thinking about them this much might have became something sexual, especially because pornography of them is easy to encounter with them. The fetish is 99% likely to be porn-induced though, because I did not watch furry porn from the beginning, unlike you, who was very interested in it as a child.

I think that the people who do not know what a furry is are from non-western societies. The two people who asked were from India and Egypt. I am surprised that there are not that many posts about furries as well. Most people talk about femdom, HOCD, or hypno. Since there is so much furry porn out there, I would think that it would be a more common topic.

The furry fandom is definitely one of the most sexual fandoms out there. Just searching up "furry" and going to images will get you some sexual results. The ninety percent statistic should be compared to a control though. Children join this fandom, and then they are exposed to porn. It is also telling when there are HIV testing booths at conventions, and people have to chart out who had sex with who to see the spread of the disease.

I don't think I still have gotten rid of the fetish though. I remember in a wet dream that after I orgasmed, I was just like "I already orgasmed, so I'll just look at porn," and I was putting e***.n** into the search bar before waking up. I think that this fetish will be hard to get rid of. Even before I acquired the fetish, I was into cartoon porn. I watched hentai. There's something about real-life porn that I can see through and realize how bad it is. I wish I could do the same for cartoon porn.

 

I think that this lucid dream experience made me crave sex more. Now, I don't want to masturbate; I can't bring myself to it. Instead, I now have a desire for sex. I cannot have it though. Maybe lucid dreaming sex will be more of a problem for me in the future. I will try to resist it though.