Will I be stable?

Hi guys, today is 14th day

This period I'm having a strong frustration, depression and sadness
But the most hard thing I'm facing is being unstable emotionally
For example
I met one of my friends I feel she's good and feel I may full in love with her but when I go away and think about her or see other beautiful girl , I say " she is not beautiful" but then I say (beauty is not everything as long as I feel comfort and Love for her and we share many things in common)
But in the same time I feel something deep inside that is looking for a so beautiful girl although this girl I feel admiration for, isn't ugly she's beautiful to some extent and has good kind heart

By the way I don't intend to involve in any relationship before 90 days or at least 80 days

So what do you think about my state
will I be stable emotionally ?

 

I Know my brother but what I'm asking about is will I be stable and be able to take control of emotional state or not , because these thoughts makes a big cloud in my head and I'm feeling, it consumes me