That's a representation of how you value yourself. Basically you don't value yourself so you look for value in having a hot girl. That's dangerous and is probably the void that PMO is helping to fill the pain of. That's what @Supra says when he talks about accepting yourself the way you are. Just say out loud "I'm me. I'm happy being me but I'm going to build a better me". You say you're not depressed, anxious or lonely so what is PMO fixing for you? Stop looking at what other people have and focus on improving yourself. Everything else will fall into line after that (but it will take time).