Interesting as I have never seen someone split it up between hard and soft porn. I read a whole bunch on what constitutes a relapse and the best definition I found was anything which artificially arouses you. That would include porn subs too. I agree because once aroused by cute clothed girls, it's only a matter of time before they are semi nude, then nude, then having sex, then hard core sex until finally the weird fetish type stuff I would guess most people on this site are addicted too. You are fooling yourself if you think soft core is okay as it is bound to esculate as you well know. Avoid it all is my advice as it's a slippery slope back to full blown addiction. Just trying to return the favor and share the obvious with you as you doing that for me in the past has been the wake up call I needed so I don't fool myself and the addicted brain wins. Good luck, bro.
Started 90 Day Challenges on Jan 25, 2019 Relapsed 7/205 Days Longest streak 51 days Current Challenge Day 10/90 no PM Day 57 of weight training Day 10 - reduced alcohol, caffeine and sugar - just gave watcoo some advice which hopefully will be helpful to him - I am feeling great today and understanding this addictionmuch better now - staying humble to the process and not peaking are the keys I have found work so far - your brother in this struggle
Hi friends, Today, moments after the strike of the midnight clock. I signed up to be a part of this challenge. I decided its time I take this long due challenge. The last time I have successfully restrained myself was over 7 years ago, for a month. Im confident that, with the help of you guys, I will complete this challenge. I wish everybody good luck.
35 Days in no porn, 58 no masturbation. I'm ashamed to say I've been doing this challenge for years but still have not succeeded in reaching 90. I've come so close but it's hard to break a habit you've been doing for so long. Sometimes I take a peek at porn thinking it will be fine but I know it continues the wiring in my brain. I am doing this challenge to try to cure my ED and I know this is the right path. Every time I reset there is a pattern. I have a wet dream around day 20, I have dreams about porn, then a period of no libido. Now I am reaching the phase where my sex drive is kicking in again and I'm getting some morning wood again. When you have had ED as long as me you start to forget what you're missing. But once you stay away from porn long enough reality starts to hit again. I'm feeling good and proud of my progress and will do what it takes to make this year different. I'm only 25, I've still got a lifetime of sex waiting for me
Day 8 /90 1 week completed Reading your messages makes me feel that i am not alone Urges are increasing but i dont want to break this streak This time i will reach day 90 Thanks for your support
3 days no PMO 4 days less sugar. 9 days no alcohol. 1 14 day streak. 47 days no Facebook. Prayed my chaplet. I am loved and acceptable. I do not need to do extraordinary things to get attention from myfamily. There is nothing I can do to get their attention. It is futile. The attention I get from women in porn is not real. I can get attention from God, Mary, my guardian angel, my favourite saints, my friends. I never felt seen in my house growing up. I was a burden. No one ever told me that, but I got the hint. Seams I was looking for a mother in porn. I could pretend these women saw me and cared for me. That they believed in me. I did not sense that anyone believed in me growing up. I don't remember ever being patted on the shoulder. I don't ever remember being encouraged. I don't remember being helped with anything. I was on my own and just got in serious trouble when I did not do a good job. The only tenderness I experienced was in porn. Reading the book called "The Emotionally Absent Mother" by Jasmin Lee Cori. Reading through the messages one should receive from their mother gives me very similar feelings to what porn gives me. "I am glad that you are here", "I see you", *you can rest in me" just to name a few from this book. I never connected with my mother. She was too far gone. Still is. I went through a major surgery 9 years ago and I was trying to get some consolation from her. I did not even get a bit. No tenderness. No empathy. I never sensed anything at all from her. Just distance. She is so far away. She rejected me. Porn did not. It was always there for me. It was a fake friend. Perhaps I should be grateful. Maybe it kept me from killing myself. The only consolation I had. No one cared. It is time to move on now. I am connecting with real people now. I don't need porn anymore. Its time to say goodbye.
