Day 4/30 Sunday was difficult. Not so much with temptation but just feeling the impact of this withdrawal. I felt irritable most of the day and had a depressed mood. I get these dull headaches sometimes as well. I imagine it's from the damage to my dopamine receptors possibly? It's like it hurts to think. I notice this during tasks where my prefrontal cortex is trying to engage. I did get out in nature and hike a few miles which was good. Hit the gym at 5am this morning and had a healthy breakfast as well. Today during work my goals are to listen to some motivating videos, journal, and 2x 20 min mindfulness mediation. Lets climb this mountain!
This weekend i spent it watching series and youtube videos. Its like i was using it as a coping mechanism. The funny thing is although it wasnt porn, i still felt like i was slipping. When the urge came knocking hard, i remember my spirit telling me to get up, atleast just get up and read your journal. I chose tk lie in bed and fight the urge. Its obvious i ddnt want to get up. Because i knew that if i get up, i will not pmo. So i guess a part of me wanted to indulge pmo. Sadly, i woke up with the, you could have just fought harder thought. God help me.
Relapsed. Was fighting off the urges all day until I finally gave in. No porn involved, so I'm still watching that streak. Going back to the 1 day challenge and working my way back from there. Good luck everyone, and see you around the site.
Don't think on it mate get straight back on I relapsed yesterday and this morning but Im right back here and ready to go again
Don't take yourself too hard. You did a great streak. For the signature, there is an Update Day Counter tab inside the Menu, on mobile. If I'm not mistaken, in PC you can find it just below the signature.
It might be lack of sleep, or of quality sleep. Of course it could be something else, but it wouldn hurt to try to get better sleep.
Kudos on 26 days bro. That is progress. I have never achieved 26 days. Lets Keep the fire burning bro and never give up.
Day 15/30 and guess what, cant remember wen last I stayed clean for this long really enjoying the #challenge