Thanks bro. This is encouraging. Especially "start hopping" part. I will do my best. Youre right. Nothing excites me as porn does. I have other things thst excite me but not as much as porn. But in order to change i just have to keep doing them even if they dont seem as exciting. This weekend has been tempting and it still is. Trusting God.
Closed my twitter account looked at some lewd pics on the way out. So starting over with a little more resolve, day 0
JUST FLUSHED THE ENTIRE 12 /30 INTO THE DRAINS. SO DISAPPOINTED AT MY SELF. LAST I HELD ON THE RESTED URGES TO M'ING BUT TODAY I JUST COULDN'T. I FEEL SO WEAK AND BROKEN INSIDE.
Day. 0. Sadly i gave into temptation. It was a struggle last night. Although i dont feel any headaches or pain. It shows this past 10 days free was really good for me. Still thinking about all that led me here. Will explain things deeper later in the day.
Day 6,7 and 8 were mostly good. As I was travelling, I did not commit the sin. But few times, I was battling through the dirty thoughts. Those battles reminded me, it was long when I had fought. Most recently, I would have determined not to commit this sin, but as soon as few dirty thoughts came, I was it's slave. We all must stay strong and win this battle.
Relapsed after a night of drinking, I don't usually drink so I underestimated my will power under the influence, so I'm starting this challenge again, day 0, take it from me it is NOT worth it!
Day 9 is going good. Had few mood fluctuations. But so far it's ok within the tolerance limit. I hope and put all effort to stay clean!!