Day 0 the last time for a while sorry I’m going through a lot this week i got a concussion and have been stuck inside so I have not been able to do my normal routine but there are other things I can do to fight this no retreat no surrender
Day 20 I am moving into the fire . I can feel it fantasy mind has ramped up big time! My fight is too not engage it or catch it as quickly as possible. I know I have created this pathway of the fantasy mind . I am up against it . I am drawing upon the experience of those who have gone before me and do believe this quote .. "The strongest of all warriors are these two - Time and Patience." - Leo Tolstoy, War and Peace. Time is my ally as I rewrite my behaviour These are members of our army
Well I can’t really completey apply it yet because of my recent condition but I’ll start this tomorrow because I know in my heart I can beat a good 7 to 14 days in witch I should have my head healed by then so anyways here it goes I’m doing a reward/ punishment system but I need to work it out some so far every little achievement I make I will get myself something I want and if I relapse witch I can’t do this will begin tomorrow if I relapse I have a punishment of physical exercise that will ware me out and it will be a weeks period of some really exhausting challenges for instance the Most I generally can run is 12 miles I would force myself to go 24 if I relapse again witch will really ware me out and I also have a few more punishments for that week won’t want to relapse again another thing I will do is if I do relapse add another 90 days I can only do this once but my challenge really will begin tomorrow otherwise I will be discouraged even more so my goal is 180 days but if I relapse within this next period I will make it 270 days it’s crazy then again I’m kind of desperate when it comes to quitting this addiction I normally workout to keep my discipline up as well as diet but lately I have been off my diet and stoped any exercise mainly do to my concussion but tomorrow I will be back on the path of discipline no more weakness I need to man up and fight this thing I still need to improve my plan but this is the draft somewhat so far let me know what you think
Your welcome for the sharing. As far as courage and steadfastness- no, I claim little of either. There is a reason I turn this over to God, and why I seek support from my fellow Spartans.
Holly man do not rely on your mind to guide you out . Remind yourself why you are here and what you want for your life , Take on a new practice instead of what you usually do when the urge arises. If it's in the middle of the night get up out of bed and walk outside . It is that real .
I rlapsed guys.. Back to day one.. The reason for this one is solely my negligence to my environment and I let my guard down.. I almost edge for 4 hours.. I really exhausted and fed up with this p thing in my life.. But there is no one but I have to cope with this one thing in my life... I was addicted to smoking and drinking but I left all those but this hell thing is taking a lot more effort than I think.. Already I have been connected with nofap since September 19 I think ane year has past I seen some improvements but not upto par..