OK I screwed up back to zero ... PMO yesterday. I did not have strong enough intention, and failed to do my antidotes when urges & fantasies arose. I did learn that I may simply not be strong enough right now to sustain 4 or 5 waves of urges & fantasies in a row....Yesterday I did get through 3 waves. So to handle this, not only will I do my breathing antidote every time urges & fantasies arise in my mind, from now on, everytime, I will also stop what I am doing, and walk IMMEDIATELY OUTSIDE, beginning my antidotes as I go. We will see how this goes. I also have to say I am so grateful to NoFap, and my Higher Power, because I have had two streaks of 7 days good in a row, and this is more than I have had in the last year. Peace to you. NOFAP Streak Record: 4, 7, 7.... "When you have Fantasies, imaginary thinking, euphoric recall etc, or any trigger , then
One day at a time . I set my goal to just go one day without fapping. Or even one moment if it comes to that. Then I repeat
Day 19. It was nice now I am able to see improvement in my will power and mental health. I am fighting with my vulgur and negative thoughts. I am also attending brain rewire session daily which helps me alot. But still have alot of work to do.
1) urges are way higher but would rather have the real experience or none at all aha 2) been making more goals and hitting them 3) hard to tell about stress level since I’ve been out of work since April 4) getting up at 5 am is great, haven’t napped in awhile 5) long way to go though I mean I’ve been doing and watching porn since like gr 8 and I’m 27 now so that’s a long time hope to what the next 90 brings
Ok today is going ok....So, I have had several small urges today, but these I have handles easily with my breathing antidote, and I am really practicing simply going outside EVERY time any Urge/desire/fantasy shows up.....It is becoming easy and natural, and is so helpful... Just going outside directly, immediately , makes dealing with the Urge/desire/fantasy so much easier.....part of me wonders what would have happened if I just started doing this 40 years old....water under the bridge, although I know then, many of my urges were at work in jobs where I could not just immediately walk outside. Know , working for myself, it makes doing this so much easier....Thanks alll
Day 11. Forgot to put this earlier, but survived another day. Had some dreams, tough ones. Urges are more frequent