THE STAR TREK CHALLENGE!

Day 6 as a civilian

 

I forgot to mention that later on the same day I relapsed with porn, I masturbated exactly because of the chaser effect (I didn't put it in the post because I had already reset the counter after watching porn earlier), and today's wank was probably the last after-effects of that. However, 12 days is a pretty good streak for me considering all that happened beforehand.

Certainly the last few big streaks I had were all without porn - I had been around 2 months porn-free prior to my major relapse, and while the occasional wanks without porn were a nuisance, they weren't having any negative effect on my reboot as far as I could see, as I was really starting to feel my erectile capabilities return and my streaks were getting progressively longer as my mental fortitude began to return. I certainly hope that will happen again as I continue this reboot.

 

Day 1 as a civilian.

 

*****Q here from outer space******

476 days SR
47 days no sex

“The farther away you are from the truth, the more the hateful and pleasurable states will arise. There is also self- deception” Bodhidharma

Girls: my father asked me yesterday about the fitness girl I dated like 3 weeks ago, so I replied to him, I usually don’t talk too much about girls with him, he spends most of the time doing meditation and he doesn’t like to talk too much about mundane affairs, but he is quite knowledgeable about girls, he told me the fitness girl is a good girl and she really likes me, she has her flaws as any other women, but it is normal.

I mentioned him the 18 y.o girl I’m seeing at the gym he didn’t like her so much, she’s a bit crazy and immature I already knew this that is why I see her as a friend, but im going to stay away from her a bit more and no more kisses with her.

So we end up choosing the fitness girl, she is really into me, she’s studying to be a physician, mature and physically she has one of the best bodies I’ve ever seen, beautiful eyes too. I don’t see myself long term with her but a couple of months will be fine. Also she is leaving the country in a couple of months so it’s not a bad idea. We are talking again.


Austerities: 2/30

Its going great already refraining the senses and waking up before 4am has helped me to gain new energy

Meditation: today I’m doing meditation again, I noticed I have a lot of energy, probably for the semen retention streak but it’s more a physical energy I need to refine it, otherwise I can lose it very easily, it’s not a very deep energy, it’s a bit shallow, I’ll do some meditation to work this out. Also spending some time away from very mundane girls helps a lot to storage energy, if not careful girls can drain you out very fast.

 

This is an advice that my father a real tantric master told me today

“First of all recognize the illusion of this world, the materiality and mundanity of women in general, you need to have clear concepts about the deceit of the material life so this way you find the motivation to search the inner life which is what is really truthful."

 

Borg Drone IN THE STAR TREK CHALLENGE

 

My orders, Captain.

 

First day as a cadet, pumped to be here.

 

Day 1 completed, back in the Civilian monkey-suit

 

@AtomicTango I would like to join the challenge brother

 

**Q checking in from outer space**

 

Day 2 as a civilian.

 

day 7
I started weeks ago watching the original series of Star Trek and is good.

 

The journey has started
Now I am Civilian

 

Day 2 completed

 

Day 8 - Cadet

 

0 days , starting tomorrow again . wish me luck