A lot of factors but pmo is one of them. I deal with some chronic pain and i think i started to flatline too.
100 days without P !!! 2 days no MO Feel free to ignore this post, it's just me writing whatever comes to mind hoping it makes sense lol. I feel like it would be so stupid to relapse at this point for me because I don't have any good reasons to do it, really. Sometimes I get curious about watching some stuff or looking up something that can lead to anything explicit, but that's my brain trying to convince itself to watch P, I learned to recognize when that happens. Anytime I crave watching P I instantly think to myself "why would you ever do that?" . Why would I ever want to go back to feeling depressed, paranoid, ashamed, lonely, anxious, etc etc ¿?? So basically I think I reached a point where it's easy to not watch P. And that makes me forget sometimes that this is an addiction and I'm not yet "cured" (nor do I think I'll ever be). But then there are many moments that remind me I'm addicted, like when I'm alone and start to feel anxious and scared because that's a perfect moment to relapse, especially if I'm feeling down. It takes a lot of hard work to get it together, to fix our lives to finally be in a place where we feel happy. Quitting P has been a very big step towards that though, and I encourage everyone to keep trying, even when you keep failing. Oh and about MOing... I'm not sure how I feel about that anymore. The only thing that worries me about it is that I don't want it to be something that makes me crave P, but so far it hasn't been like that. Have a nice weekend guys
let's get to 90 days together this time bro day 4 in the books. Doing good so far I think feelings of loneliness and not sleeping enough are my two biggest risk factors. So I'm gonna make sure to keep in touch with friends and family all the time and go to sleep at the same time everyday
Day 16 in the list!! Today I was having mood swings and overthinking and negative thoughts about future but I relaxed myself and got back to work.
Finished day 9, I worked out again after 2 months and I took cold shower. But I had a hard day, I was extremely urged most of the time, had to stop working to calm down and talk to persons (in chat as I'm isolated in my room) so I could distract my mind... It all was working well until I decided to enter those strangers chats. I didn't relapse or PMO, but after some talk with a person I - I ended up with cum in my pants * facepalm *. And I'm feeling bad for that, it should have never happened, I didn't intend to do it, although the dopamine rush was definitely there. So now, I just cannot afford another situation like that. I blocked these chat sites and I'm going cold turkey with dopamine this weekend, not talking to people until I'm more focused in my work and catch up with that stupid slid up of tonight. I won't give up, I'll do this whatever it takes... stay strong!
day 5 Feel free to ignore this but because it helped me I'm gonna give a random tip for everyone here struggling with depression or negative moods: consider taking ashwagandha, it is proven that it lowers cortisol levels and boosts natural testosterone production while having no side effects. I tried it after reading about it and it helped immensely in treating my depression. I take 2x300mg, one in the morning and one in the evening and already after a few days my mood and energy improved drastically. I take it for 3 months now and will keep doing so Have a great weekend everyone! And remember to keep rewiring your dopamine receptors to pursue the real pleasures of life and not some pixel screen fake shit
Hey y'all. Discovered this community a while ago but quickly after forgot about it. This week I started observing it more seriously and thus decided to create an account. For a long time I'm aware about how bad and devastating this PMO addiction is but I was not able to successfully overcome it, no matter what I tried and which trick or mindset I used to practice. I'm about 9 years into it and I'm so so tired of all of this. I think the process of accounting, confessing and specifying goals should be very helpful. Day 3 here. Personal record is a 23 day streak. For now my goal is 30 consecutive days. We're in this together folks. <3 PM me here or on Discord (Cheetahh_#1545) if you want to hear more of my personal story, Cheers
Finished day 10 but I was literally at the border of relapse, for a moment I thought I would fail but somehow I managed to resist and SUCCEED. It is possible people, you can be very aroused but if you have the determination not to fail you won't! Well, I must mention that (1) I didn't get an erection even though I was really horny, and I don't know if this is a flatline effect or what, seems really strange to me but I don't care for now; and (2) it was my fault that I almost relapse, of course, I did something not so good for the reboot process again (yesterday I did it, and its about talking with strangers in forums where there's a lot of mentions to sex and people looking for PMO with others - bad sites for our NoFap journey) and well, it's already two red flags... if I do it again a third time I'll reset my counter, I have to be disciplined with this. And because I will feel pain if I reset my counter, then I will not fall in the "online chats" trap which can be really triggering. Something that helped was understanding the addiction stuff though, as today (yesterday actually) I went to be by 5 am reading and watching Gary Wilson's video on the porn addiction basics (dopamine, opioids, Coolidge effect etc.) and it helped me understand better my urge while I was in the online chats stuff. When you understand the science behind something it's easier for you to take control on it, and today I did it, so thankful with all these people who have explained to us how porn affects our brains and how we can fix the problem! There's hope people, won't give up and stay strong - we got this!