Day 6 and my fourth day in my new Job. I am struggling a bit but it is good to have a reason to get up in the morning and hopefully I will get better over time.
Day 19 Finally, was able to sleep and wake up early .. it is the thing that your self would not give up so easily .. most of the bad stuff happens at night when I am sleepless .. but it is relieving when you wake up before sunrise and you are not sleepy but completely awake .. even so tired to write sth now .. with early sleeping and waking up, the day is long and deep .. you can possibly enter the zone of focusing and feel numb towards time .. very hard to keep it .. unless it becomes a habit Hopefully I can complete my ideas on Wisdom tomorrow "Come, come, whoever you are. Wanderer, worshiper, lover of leaving. It doesn't matter. Ours is not a caravan of despair" [/QUOTE]
Day 0 - I was searching for a girl profile on Facebook and the lead to another girl (with big boobs) and in her profile, she posted a link for a nude of a random girl. So yeah, I don't wanna approach girls at all, but all have to.
Day 3 Calisthenics are where it's at, the temple of iron is overrated. Pullup bars can be hard to get a hold of but everyone has room to do pushups and squats, lockdown or no lockdown. Buuuuuuuut I really shouldn't talk because I'm still pudgy from the holidays. Are your lifts measured from using a smith machine or free weight?
Disagree with the temple of iron being overrated @Thadeus Tuffington As much as I love calisthenics, barbell training gives you much better gains and is much more intense and satisfying. The only use for a smith machine I can think of are shrugs without hitting your nads XD For lockdown prison training I have a set of kettlebells for pressing, single leg lifts, accessories and loaded carries, and gym rings in my balcony to do weighted pullups and dips. How are y'all staying fit during these times of unannounced and sudden lockdowns?
P: 51 days M: 77 days O: 77 days * 5 PMO but no relapse * 1 MO but no relapse * Averaging 12.8 days on PMO nofap * 17 days straight nofap
Day 20 Again I am very tired from a long day .. it is fulfilling day still .. while I was out, I had a picture in my mind .. I imagined what if I can access the "folder" of bad thoughts and emotions that come to me and I am able to conveniently "select all" using the magical "Ctrl + A" in my mind (somehow) and then "delete all" (even with shift) .. what happens next? .. Should it have been that easy? .. imagine .. you become clean in one day .. done .. why there is a thought in my head that says loudly there is a big mistake about having it that way? .. that the convenience and easiness is not the "right" way .. is it because our behavior patterns even the good ones may lead us to same mistakes .. because it is a cheap process to be clean again .. some even may want to delete his bad memories .. I will try to explore this thought experiment tomorrow .. perhaps there is sth there as a solace for us when we are in hard times that keeps us firm, solid, resistant, and persistent in walking this road to whatever end it leads ... "Come, come, whoever you are. Wanderer, worshiper, lover of leaving. It doesn't matter. Ours is not a caravan of despair" [/QUOTE]
Day 11... had some mild urges yesterday but was able to persevere and stay on track, hope everyone is doing well
Starting today, I'm afraid of this but it's time to do it. I'm going for 90 days without PM. Wish me luck!
