In the past 150 days I have: * PMO'd 9 times but not fully relapsed * MO'd 1 time but not fully relapsed * Averaging 16.7 days on strict PMO nofap * 30 days straight nofap streak so far
Today i talked to my girlfriens, i had to admit that i was watching porn for previous 6 months. She sad that she feels disguisted by every last time we had sex, like she was used and that she dont want to go to bed with me any time soon. I feel relive admitting to her, because i dont want to stay with this alone. She said that the best way to quit addiction is to quit cold turkey. We plan to live together in a few konts. So now its either our relarionship or porn. I am a medical student. In 100 days there will be an imagine dragons concert, and then we plan to rent a flat together. I think thats really my last chance to finally quit it.
Day 36, needed to search for creative young poeple on pinterest for school yesterday, but then you get some wrong pictures, I looked at them, but my appointment with myself is that it is fine if it happens on occasion and I don't keep watching, but click away within 5 seconds. So keep going, I know that this was by accident and that this will not happen again the coming week an further.
In the past 151 days I have: * PMO'd 9 times but not fully relapsed * MO'd 1 time but not fully relapsed * Averaging 16.8 days on strict PMO nofap * 31 days straight nofap streak so far
Wheeee day 0, Coming off a really bad weekend where I found myself overwhelmed by urges. There's a more accurate take on my journal, but I've been trying to explore the underlying feelings that put me into porn, and my particular kink. I got overwhelmed, and it feels like I've taken a pretty big step back bordering a mental breakdown. Woke up at 5am with major urges, relapsed but turned the negative into a positive by going for a nice jog and getting to work early. I feel much more positive and refreshed than before, and hope to break my initial 19 day streak. Of course, it's hard because the more energized I get the hornier I get, and I've got a lot of sexually confused emotions right now that can turn anything into a trigger. Hoping to take it slow and push forwards!
Physical exercise is important! That's probably number 1. It might also help to talk with people you know irl, or do some cleaning. Remember, PMO is a conscious decision. Remember you can always say no!
I've heard there's a hormone boost around the 7-8 day mark, they're no joke. That's probably what you're experiencing. Physical exercise helps a lot! Clean your room, go for a jog, and be productive! Bring your focus out of the fictional world of porn and center yourself in reality. You got this! *edit* apparently I replied to this already and didn't see it lol ;w;
In the past 152 days I have: * PMO'd 9 times but not fully relapsed * MO'd 1 time but not fully relapsed * Averaging 16.9 days on strict PMO nofap * 32 days straight nofap streak so far