Accountability for All

Day 05 : 19 march.
Don’t know a little excited and happy but exhausted too. Tomorrow got exam and little afraid of it but today getting call from her made me happy. I need to work more hard in myself and getting job. That is the path ahead for me. Now going to sleep putting audiobooks to listening. Hope everything will be alright.

 

I relapsed, too

 

Day 6 is over!!!

 

Day 33, went out yesterday night. Despite I need to work on my social skills (starting a conversation with unknown people/girls), it went good with nofap, no urges or misuse of social media afterwards etc.

 

In the past 148 days I have:

* PMO'd 9 times but not fully relapsed
* MO'd 1 time but not fully relapsed
* Averaging 16.44 days on strict PMO nofap
* 28 days straight nofap streak so far

 

Day 21

 

relapsed yesterday, but there are nothing to pressure me in this following week, so I think I'll get a strong streak started

 

Day 5 in the list!! Today I was able to recollect myself , working hard to become better to be myself.

 

On day 7 now, and the urges are there. It sucks so much but I got this and will get through it.

 

checkin'

 

In the past 149 days I have:

* PMO'd 9 times but not fully relapsed
* MO'd 1 time but not fully relapsed
* Averaging 16.6 days on strict PMO nofap
* 29 days straight nofap streak so far

 

Day 22

 

day 1 again,
checking in again

 

Yep here we go got in, the last two days have been so difficult...
I have two Days Inn I need to go look read my yellow book of all my fuck ups...
Meditation helps a little bit watching my mind just constantly watching my mind helps the most
My mind is just on this path doing that and stuff I don't need to imagine in the when I just say no no no and it's like a herding cats back to the thing back they just what we need to do no big deal....

 

Reset

 

Nice week. Not so much urge work hard and result are : focus, control and better than a day before.
Still today was hard day. Felt to watch porn , but havent fed the hijacker demand. It’s a no . I am change and better and will enjoy real relationship with my girlfriend. Till than work hard be successful . Reward comes after sacrifice- hard work.

 

I just do not seem to learn from the pain I cause myself

 

Day 0 relapsed
I made it through 7 1/2 days. That’s the longest I’ve ever gone. I’m going to keep pushing it. I really want to change. I’m not sure what even happened to make me relapse. I know I can make 7 days that means I can make it much more.
I hope everyone is doing well and fighting through this!