Day 192 Stressful presentation done and dusted, meaning I could spend the afternoon relaxing with my friends. We had a celebratory drink, went for dinner, and saw the new Thor movie; all in all a great way to spend the day. No urges again today, feeling a lot more confident about my ability to fight the battle. It’s been a while since I’ve had a really strong urge to relapse, so I’m keeping my eyes peeled to make sure it doesn’t hit me by surprise.
Day 11 Not much to say. Watched Derek in the evening. Great Tv show. Spent some time with my dad in the evening. He’s the best dad in the world and I was happy to be with him.
Sorry to hear mate. Make sure to surround yourself with people you love. Lean into friends and family and do lots of nice things for yourself. Wish you all the best.
33 (1 hard mode) days complete Not a lot of urges this day. After work I really wanted to play some video games because I was tired, but instead I just rested on the bed and after a while started to feel better and the desire got smaller so I started reading. I am still checking women out, but at the office there are less of them.
4 days – A brave friend, Tom Bombadil, takes notice of your quest. He teaches you a rhyme to summon him if you fall into danger within his borders. Quest Aid – Song of Bombadil
Checking in two days. Yesterday I went to another city for the interview, so most of the day I've spent in the train. I have some urges checking out women, I should mange it. I should be on guard, always thinking before doing anything
Hello everyone. I am opting out of this challenge. There is nothing wrong with it at all, it is great and motivating and inspiring, and it has really helped me gain a lot of insight into this addiction and life in general. I am because this is focused on the recovery of pmo addiction, and i am practising full celibacy, so there is a mismatch in intent. I also feel that i could very quickly become addicted to the recovery, and relapse when i finished the challenge, instead of seeing the rest of my life as the recovery, thus never reaching a goal but treating life as the goal. I wish every one of you an awesome recovery. May you use it to becomd the best version of yourselves. (I am aware that i may realise this was wrong and come back to this challenge. So take it with a grain of salt haha).
I really appreciate everyone’s response to my recent relapse. I have to tell you all that I strongly considered just disappearing and not coming back in order to “save face”. I was worried you all might judge me or even that my failure would somehow be a bad influence on you all. Your responses have showed me that posting and being honest was the right call. Thanks for being so supportive. Urges have been super strong since my relapse but I have managed to stay clean now for a day. When the urge to look at porn comes I remind myself that it won’t actually make me feel better. It’s a lie. I will feel better for the five (or maybe 20 if I edge) minutes that I’m watching but then I will instantly feel even worse after it’s over. So far this logic has got me through. I’ll keep coming back so I will see you all tomorrow.
Day 76 SOME SIMPLE RULES “In your actions, don’t procrastinate. In your conversations, don’t confuse. In your thoughts, don’t wander. In your soul, don’t be passive or aggressive. In your life, don’t be all about business.” —MARCUS AURELIUS, MEDITATIONS, 8.51 Simple is rarely easy. But now that you have these rules, make it your duty to put them into practice— with the first item on your to-do list, with the first conversation you have, with your soul, and, of course, with the life you make for yourself. Not just today, but every day. Write that on the blackboard and don’t forget it.
222 days semen retention Day 2 water fast Feeling great much energy and mental clarity. Spending all day reading and studying. Perhaps some meditation
Dawn of the 1st day. 1 day - At Buckland, Bilbo gives you Sting - an Elven short-sword made in Gondolin. It will turn blue when porn forces are around. Quest Item - Sting A new challenge, to take this challenge seriously but not too seriously. Life can be stressful enough as it is. Legacy Challenge: 113 days.
Checking in fellowship friends, after too long of a hiatus. Day 0 free of PMO. Dark have been the last few months, but I'm happy to see many of my comrades standing strong and continuing to tackle this. The temptation demon never sleeps. It's time to return to the basics, I will climb the mountain with you all again. Nazgûl
0 Days Relapsed on day 14. It started getting dangerous to abstain. As much as I'd have wished to continue, it was better letting go. post 12-13 days, I've been becoming extremely aloof, gaze becomes distant, twisted expression, zero empathy, I also feel nothing... no fear whatsoever. This means I'll be walking like a soul less being, there just isn't any empathy towards anything, anyone. I was inviting trouble, and I thought it was better to relapse than continue the state. I did do a workout and tried meditation, it didn't help. I also blasted at few people in pure rage.... I was inviting trouble. it was better relapsed.
37 days Low urges yestarday but something happend. Yestarady I saw 1 chapter of Castlevania (The netflix series) and this chapter had a lot of sex scenes, I was in the office, with some coworkes, so I was not able to close my eyes whem the sex scenes appears. Something that I did is to focus mi sigth to other point of the monitor but I saw some sex scenes. After that I know that I will be tempted and I was rigth, but with that in mind I was able to manage the urges. We have to remember that the temptations will be there (maybe the rest of our lifes) but we have to find ways to mantain our urges low and act when we have them. Today I worked out and took a cold shower. Keep strong my brothers.
Day 3 So far so good My brain is kind of tired and urges are popping up, so I'm going for a walk and then I'll get back to work