Wow these relapses are making me dumb as fuck. Can feel the damaged brain very nicely. Recent regular relapses are working. They are killing me nicely. I am so dumb right now that I can feel the dizziness in my head, the eyes dull and closing. I am forgetting many things frequently. Too much effectively fucking my daily routine.
life in the Now brother, that´s all that matters. but if you want to dwell on thinking then focus on how great your life will be when you finish the reboot and adopt nofap as a lifestyle, you will blow the roof with confidence, energy and happiness. go brother, much love
Day 6/90! Almost up to a week with no MO (P free for almost 4 months now), which has been my goal for a while now! I've had some major temptations, but God has given me strength to push through them. Always having something to do next, though exhausting, has proven to be a great method for pushing through this struggle. Also, almost done with my 30-day cold shower challenge, so that's pretty great too!
take the pressure off brother. no need to be scared, the method you used to reach 42 days it´s the method that will set you free. there´s no surprises there. just keep going
i know exactly how you feel brother. been there so many times, withdrawal is pure hell. but trust the process brother, better days will surface and the epic life you deserve lies ahead. yesterday i though on something: if it wasn´t for porn addiction we will never engage in nofap an create an amazing life, much better than the average Joe. so if we think on it maybe pmo addiction might be a blessing in disguise . not only you will regain your life but you´ll create a new one, so great you won´t believe yourself. that´s what every rebooter says. as for now, i know it´s hard but get in there brother, keep pushing, don´t give up. "i hated every minute of the training, but i said "don´t quit", suffer now and live the rest of your life as champion" Mohammed Ali
make a chart brother. check and acknowledge the all 41 days you´ve been pmo free, and mark the 42 day as relapse. that´s a great streak and your brain rewired a lot, you have done lot´s of progress. another thing is you didn´t use porn on the relapse, you didn´t blew the all pattern. that means even in the deepest urge and excitement you still knew how bad porn is. very good now learn and go again when you feel ready brother. much love
33 lot´s of urges today, i was really tempted to throw everything away and just go for the softcore. then i read a part of my motivation memo in my mobile i wrote one week ago when i expose myself to softcore (and suffer all the negative effects). i will read to you: "(...) prolongated softcore peaking will do the same effects as PMO and the hangover will be the same (several days), like when i expose myself in 17 of april" that sentence there literally safe me from relapse. brothers, the fucking addicted mind will try every excuse in the book to put us on porn or porn subs. every relapse you make, or a stumble on a risky behaviour, write it down. those valuable lessons will be your life safer, so read them every day because the addict brain will have no mercy on us if we forget them. be sharp, be smart. Onwards
Day 17. Much busy last week. So, alone at home today taking rest and feeling horny. Avoided the trap Successfully. STAY STRONG. FOCUS ON AIM.
DAY 17/90. I apologize for not posting in a while, been so busy, and in bed early. Keeping busy, potential date comin up with a girl, new summer job before I go back to college.