Day 15/90. Another good day. I'm tempted to sit back and look in awe at my progress already, but I know I'm far from where I want to be! I'm also sure I will feel even better than now, even though I don't know how that is going to be possible! Still I'm taking everything one day at a time, and I've found it helpful to not get too upset at little things throughout the day or when I don't get as much done as I want to. I'm sure I will be able to be even more productive the longer I can stay away from PMO!
Day 2 completed without any single thought of porn & mastrubate. Lot more to come. Good morning all. Have a good day.
Lying in bed getting ready to read The Dead House by Dostoevsky. I'm about 80 percent done. I love Russian lit. It sure beats looking at porn and jacking off before going to sleep. I appreciate all who write a few words of they're experience , strength and hope or words of the struggle and what they're trying to achieve. I also get strength from those who fail , maybe often, and dont give up but keep on striving to be free of this addiction. Thanks everyone. One day at a time.
I think apart from nofap the next issue am facing is the desire to talk with every pretty girl I see. Now that my sexual energy is building up as am on NoFap, I am really having a hard time to block in that desire. Sometimes I find my self losing all my focus and doing all possible things to talk to a pretty girl. The reason why I don't want to talk to them is that. I am trying to fix my dopamine circuits and I want then to build in productive areas. And every time I talk to those pretty girls I feel drained and find it had to do productive work since I be thinking of them alot.
Had some intense craving for sex. And happy and sad at the same time. Happy cause for the first time I have had a craving for real sex. To the point I got thoughts of walking over to my pretty neighbor friend's place to ask her that we should have sex together And sad cause since I my wet dream a few days back am experiencing alot of sexual urges and a low motivation to do productive activities.
Day 38 Reading about death grip(masturbating without lubricant). Effects Masturbating without any lubricant. I did it for quite a well https://www.healthline.com/health/death-grip-syndrome
