Day 16 - Checking In My Urge getting bigger I lost in one of race My feeling mix between dissapointed and "I don't care" Feeling Any way, I don't know if I can pass this day Let see
All the best my friend, I totally understand this, I got the shit beat out of me late last week. It always passes but in the heat of the moment this is so hard to remember.
Day 2, still reading a lot about this issue and trying to grasp the fact that this is not a joke and I need to do this
Day 24 I decided to hold off on exercising this week. I still plan on doing a little in the mornings and before I go to bed but I am cancelling my standard cardio, stretching, and strength training 4-5 hours worth. My body is bothering me a bit and I am spending more attention to cultivating my tai chi and incorporating basic principles into my life, mainly body awareness, relaxed and coordinated movement, tan tien awareness, and a healthy posture.
Day 9 Tough day. Stressed, and apparently a big trigger for me is just being on my laptop (usually do work at a desktop). I pulled my laptop out on my couch and just had insane urges the entire time I had my laptop out. Powered thru, but not easy. I'm getting better at recognizing the feeling when the trigger clicks in and can usually stay grounded enough to not give in - but it's tough with something like a laptop as I do work from there. How do you guys deal with a trigger as generic as using a laptop? I'm going to have to keep using the laptop, and I know on my rough days it'll be even tougher than it was today to resist. Higor: you got this bro. Don't fret too much about the relapse, be proud how far you've made it and that you've recognized some things (or friends) aren't right for you. That's a big deal. Focus on the positives. We're here for ya. Keep it up guys,
What happen? Thank you so much for your support. Luckily I can pass it. I already feel bad because I lost in a race, and I don't wanna make it worst if I relapse
Day 10 One thing I've been doing is keeping a calendar and counter in my office. It's been really helpful to see my progress. I particularly like having a counter that shows total days with & without PMO. It all feels more cumulative. I'd love to have a 0 in that red column, but ultimately it's about the ratio and about making improvements over time. Thinking I could go 36 of 40 days w/o porn even a few months ago would've been totally unbelievable to the past version of myself.
Day 25 Looking forward to the weekend. PS I am not doing any exercise or tai chi in the mornings. My body feels good but I have been jittery and hyper. I think it might be because of work, factory numbers get stressful at the end of the month. I think that tomorrow will be less chaotic.