You must not give up Risho . Yes this addiction is a beast . It has the same effect as crack cocaine . This is a real fight.The withdrawal you feel is the brain wanting its fix . It will do anything to get it. I have struggled many times and fallen . You are not alone .
How about instead of planning to wear your self out after a relapse you try wearing your self out when you feel like relapsing. This ensures you dont have energy to actually go through the relapse.
I generally would do that anyway lol I am just injured lately so anything athletic would be somewhat dangerous but anyways I’m working on building discipline again at the moment I hope to just beat this once and for all it’s really messed up my life and is very depressing that it’s gone on for so long
Fell of the band wagon... will not be counting today neither will I binge. I will be using today to alter somethings in the drawing board