+TenPercent

It occurred to me that maybe not getting waxed (due to lockdown) is connected to my recent slips with masturbation. Reminds me of my past. I masturbate to wake up the limp little thing, to bring it out of the forest.
Feel like I am slipping into a rut. Not moving forward. Ugh

I slipped. M, with cuck fantasies. I don't feel so bad, really. I was doing well, staying strong. Then it hit me in the shower and moments later it was over with a relapse.
It was M, not P. I worked 10+ hours and was exhausted, stressed. I don't believe that I did anything wrong to build up to that moment, I had not been lustful that day, it just happened.

Come on bud, unleash the beast!! :)

Which beast? Haha!
But I think I know what you mean. Thanks for the encouragement. I'm doing a little better.

And . . . I've made it through another hour

The beast who sleep inside of yourself...

*folds arms* Dont slide down into the vortex of PMO lies. Its trying to trick you, +10%. you’ve done incredibly well for yourself and you will again. This addiction overtakes us each and every time. You got this, you can make it, believe in yourself , you have a team here supporting you.

Good job on day 1! :)

It's all good . You have been trying really hard, you can do whatever you want .

Your streak was amazing nonetheless. A fallen warrior don't loose the knowledge he has acquired along his journey, so try again brother.

Indeed, it was a very amazing streak and I am sure you grew and progressed a lot from your old behaviors, +10%!

Oh wow well done for stopping in time, that stuff turns me on aswell iam glad my neighbor's dont moan like urs. Ur a warrior bro :) take care

@AntiqueRevolverGuy - Damn, you're right - my kind of woman. I think she's unfaithful which is why they fight so much. They are both extremely loud all the time (music, talking) and louder than that when fighting. Yet why have I only heard them have sex twice in 2+ months?

My dream last night was really unhealthy. My addict mind imagine ways to "let it slip" how tortured I felt in hopes that she might tease me directly or have even louder sex. Maybe they both want to get back at me because I have filed noise complaints (and yet they continue to stomp up there). Obviously not the way for me to get healthy.

man, M just make the flashback from P stronger-_-

We live very close, but we're both caught up in our work schedules and stress. I miss seeing her.
I'm feeling abandoned - because I had congestion on Tuesday and an upset stomach on Thursday. Neither are clear symptoms of the virus but just in case . . .

I miss our routine. I miss being with her. And oh so tempted to control my feelings w fantasy

I wish I knew how!
I was sure I would see her tonight after I had to cancel last night, but now she's not feeling well.
I lasted about 10 minutes and then started to M. Ugh. It's so familiar. A way to soothe myself. Stopped before the O. It's serious edging, that's what it is.

Clear your mind. Deep breathing will help. Talk less to yourself abt the problems you have. Absorb energy. React less.

Hope you can stand your ground, it sucks that you can hear your neighbors having sex and how it affects you. Keep going strong hoping things will change somehow and someway in the future for you! We all think you’re doing great and are rooting for you ~

Hang in there buddy

Yes it is hard in this current culture. There is so much over specialization in advertising. This is why it's best to avoid advertising as much as possible