Been a few more days since my last post. Urges are getting stronger but trying to keep my focus. This thing messes with you self esteem like nothing else. I hope I can start to regain mine with every passing day. Keep fighting the good fight everyone
Day 9 and feelin' fine. Again studied a lot, finished homework, worked out, laid out in the sun for about 45 minutes, and went for a long walk. How do you know what tomorrow will bring? If you think a monster is coming, then you'll probably be right. If you think it'll be a great day, it'll probably be great. Attitude is everything. Also, fuck tomorrow. Be in the present. Here are my tips: "Be Here Now" - Ram Dass. Fill your day with things you know are good for you.
Been a few more days since my last post. Urges have continued to increase. Hopefully they will die down soon (on their own). I am kind of still feeling blah but it’s ok. I guess it’s just part of the process. Patience is key. Have a good day everyone
Ok today not fapping anymore. I had a big urge fapping over some beach volleyball girls. The fapping is a bit porn like.
Today I will do the following. Badminton Go for walks Kegel excersizes Cooking. Contact train for refund
Day 43 - don't know why but the last few days urges were extremely strong, it's like my brain is trying to tell me that there's an old easy way for everything. I have already typed in the first terms on the internet, fortunately I switched off immediately with the first picture and this on three consecutive days! What kept me from going further this time? 1x my streak and 2x that I do not want to lie or lose my progress here in the forum. So once again, thanks for this community! Hope the next days gettin better again
I relapsed. I feel extremely bad. It was stupid and unnecessary. My brain managed it again to trick me again. At first I only watched "harmless pictures", then they got more and more intense and at some point I ended up with videos again. Rational thinking switched off. 43 days without PMO were much better and happier than now. I had such a good streak...and now I am starting from scratch again. I'm trying to take the anger with me and put it into the new start. I reached 43 days, so I can do that again now and this time I will achieve the 90 days and more! Never give in guys, believe me, it isn't worth it at all! You will get a lot of benefits if you stay away from this addiction. I already noticed many changes. Stay strong! You can do it! Unfortunately, the last days I let my defense down somehow. I thought I can't relapse anymore with this streak. I will do it differently this time and create my own post in which I will update daily, something like a diary. Hopefully this will increase my awareness. This time I just have to make it.
I relapsed three times in this week. I feel so bad. I can't beat this addiction. I don't know what to do. I'm going to cry.
This post is amazing. I can do it!! https://yourbrainrebalanced.com/for...ughts-on-rebooting-extremely-long-post.15558/
2 weeks in. While studying for finals I came across this passage about Erik Erikson's stages of psychosocial development: "Young adults must achieve intimacy vs. isolation" Young adults being 20-35 year olds, probably the most addicted age group. The quote stopped me in my tracks when I read it. The more you isolate and do you know what, the further you push away intimacy with a real person. Be well everyone
I'm committing. Im committing starting now. It is 12:26 AM where I am at. I don't do well with setting a goal for no PMO, but I am going to try now. Goal: 7 days Here goes nothing. I'll check back in tomorrow.