Day 4 of 21; My mom came in town for a visit. No way I can possibly fap with her in town. This should be an easy week.
Hi guys I need your advice , am kind of confused. Here is what happened : On Saturday night as I was looking for a cartoon some P ads popped up and I closed my eyes and closed the pop up, but I still went back to the same site and when ever the ads would pop up I would close my eyes or look away and close the ads (I did this several times) and afterwards that night I started searching for random videos (about 3 P videos appeared on the search list but didn't open to watch, scrolled away) And today I installed a web filter (k9), and I decided to try if it's workingfine by searching for P, the filter was working but two sites managed to go through, one of the sites there was a woman dressed up but withone breast out (sorry for being explicit on this one) and I went back to the site I think three times andclosed it up very quickly every time. And on my social media I had received a friend request from a person, so I decided to check if theperson does not have any material or pages related to P before accepting the friend request and when Ichecked he had P pages, so Idecided to decline his request. And I have not musturbated. So now am going through urges and am wondering if I have fallen (can I count this as a relapse?)
Well I think it's up to you to decide if this count as a relapse or not. From my point of view it's quite the opposite of a relapse you did there! You were tempted by some adds (which is totally not your fault) and yet you managed to get through the urges, you should be proud of yourself. But still, I don't think that searching for P just to check if the blocker is working fine is not the best possible idea, just don't look for it, and you won't find it
Day15, almost half of the month covered..!!! Thoughts come in and go away, it's just how we react to those urges, thoughts etc. Was watching some videos of Shuffling/ jump style dance moves, where I encountered those babes with there bum moves, but seriously, today I realized how one can distract oneself. The way we shape our thoughts makes us believe on them. I managed to view entire video and moved on, thought of fapping, but then made myself clear that they are not dancing to excite you sexually rather they want you to learn the moves which you love to do... #CHALLENEGE_21DAYS Cold Shower everyday...Cheers!!!