That moment when the urge just takes you soo overwhelmingly and after couple of minutes you realize how badly you wanna stop then you realize how badly blue balls suck and am here asking myself what do i do, i cant go back i have come soo far but i also wanna just get it over with but if i do will i be doing it because i want to help myself or because i want to watch soo badly now that i've got a taste. i gonna postpone to tommorow so that i can make it through today and i hope somehow i find a way to make it through tommorow like this is helping me today. i wish there was a switch for this.
Just finished 14 day challenge. So here we go at 0/21. I’m only doing this for PM, but O only with my girlfriend.
Took me a couple of days extra to restart getting back on track but here I am... Upgrading to 21 from 14 days(did not pass the previous one) for...more meaning? Counting today which is nearly up, there are 21 days left. Feels right. Today, as I write this marks the end of Day 1. Lets go people. Life won't wait.
Relapsed on date 9th. Day 0 was 10th. And day 1 was date 11th. I am 2nd day now. My streak has begun again. And I am gonna roll...
Currently on day 5. I think 7 days is the longest I have gone.. i can beat that this time though I have a public speaking event for work tomorrow morning where I have to speak to about 200 people, first time for a crowd that size. I should be rehersing my speech, but the anxiousness is getting to me and I am wanting to cave. Came here to right this instead though which is really helping the urge to subside.
Day 5. Another good purposeful day. I want to use this streak to build up resolve for when it gets difficult. Keep reaching out!!