33 days down, 57 remaining Lots of urges yesterday. Going has been very rough over the past 48 hours. Hoping for a better day today.
Day 25. Really good SAA meeting this morning. We always read from the daily meditation answers in the heart. It talked a lot about resentment and forgiveness. As addicts that's something I feel we don't do. We ask for the forgiveness from others but we don't forgive ourselves. Also we shouldn't let past resentment be part of our acting out. Very good meeting today.
Day 72 Deposited my pay check then did a little impulse shopping at the more expensive grocery store in the area. Did not buy candy (good), did buy unnecessary foods and drinks that I will have to eat. At least I got a deal on some of my food stuffs. I did not get up to meditate with the monks this morning, and felt guilty about that all day. It also occurred to me that I am still a sugar and caffeine addict... and a nofap/internet addict as well.