I going to start todayay-0 I won't lie I am very axious right now and my brain is asking for dopamine.
Just keep going, you're on the right way. Use your now not by porn consumed energy and free time to do something awesome and experience new stuff! day 9 for me, appreciating all the good things and people in my life.
Day 88/90 I'm a little concerned about this challenge ending. The last time I had a relapse was after I'd just completed the 30-Day Challenge, and while I still have a few weeks left on a 180-Day Challenge, the coming here each day has kept me honest. As I posted somewhere, a while ago, none of us really want to be here - this is something we're doing to enact a change in out lives. We want to live lives with something more than masturbating to porn, or coming to a forum each day to keep ourselves in check. What it takes is a leap of faith - faith in ourselves that we are good enough, strong enough, simply enough. Now I sound like a self-help schmegege.
I guess I have to pull out of this one. Or rather I will not be checking in weekly come next month. Every other week. And once in December. If this disqualifies me so be it but I still plan to be staying clean with this schedule. A moderation exercise and also a way to assess how I shall continue using this platform come next year rather than simply walk away after 90 days clean. I mean many here have more than 500+ so perhaps I will treat my use beyond that as coming to a self-help group once a week or something. Best wishes however. And I will check in at 90 days regardless.
So day 74 done... A tricky night last night. Myself and the SO fought and she ended up storming out of the house. Today has been hard as I am tired (did not sleep at all last night really) and I have the argument and state of my relationship with my SO on my mind... I hope that we can fix our relationship and love each other again, but these days I am not so sure... Onwards...
