Day 5 of 90 No temptations today even though someone retweeted porn on my twitter feed today proud of that for not falling to temptations
Relapsed. Annoyed. Even as I was doing it I knew it was wrong and that I should stop. So I think that is progress. Still only 4 and a half days though. On a positive note, that is two 4 day and a bit streaks in a row now, with no binge in between. Something to keep building on. Straight back on the horse.
That is the right attitude man! Next step is when that thought comes in your head that you realize that you are in control, you make the decisions and you are responsible. If you start recognizing these situations and you start acting on them (going outside, start doing something else or just simply not acting on your thoughts) then you are in a really good spot and with that mindset you can go really far. So you 're definately on the right track! Keep it up man and dont give up.
Going to commit to this reset of 90 days of no PM. Have had a few relapses lately, and look forward to going clean. Today is day 1 of 90.
Today day 3 edged for 10 minutes. No M but P happened. Sad. Took me lot of conversation in my mind to come out of P. Update: relapsed.
Started 90 Day Challenges on Jan 25, 2019 Relapsed 7/203 Days Longest streak 51 days Current Challenge Day 8/90 no PM Day 57 of weight training Day 8 - reduced alcohol, caffeine and sugar - feeling great and euphoric without PMO but as a result of drinking caffeinated coffee this morning...weird how that happens even though my system doesn't like it .my.. brain does
1 day no PMO 2 days less sugar. Had a small pop. I will forgive this one. 7 days no alcohol. 1 14 day streak. 45 days no social media. Shared an article that features a choir I sing in. Prayed my chaplet. Started a Rosary. Gave my computer to my friend last night. It was very hard to let go. I still feel like I am missing something. Started reading my new book yesterday on mom issues. It had a list of messages a child should receive from their mothers. Just reading through them was satisfying the hole I try to fill with porn. I feel like I only recieved maybe one of the messages from her. Man she was distant. Wow! Facebooked a bit yesterday. Man. My news feed is uninspiring. The whole thing seams to breed and celebrate mediocrity. I am glad to be away from it. I am not considering it a fall. I wanted to share my Gregorian chant choir. Plus it was an eye opening experience of how uninspiring it is.
