Today is Day 7/365. Exactly a week of no PMO. I can say this is a milestone, a small one in that, but in as much a considerable advancement in my streak. This past one week has not really been tough for me. The last few days (5,6), l've had increased urges, but nothing I didn't subdue. I've learnt this one week that, my urges are powerless and cannot harm me until I give them a reason to be otherwise. And that reason is if I open that tab,If I stay idle all day and on my phone. But if I can keep myself from opening that tab, if I can stay productive, I'm good to go. There's this good feeling that comes with getting things done. Talking back to my urges, which is my brain, also has been of help. I'm the boss here, and should dictate whatever I want for myself and not my brain. I don't want to watch porn, not anymore, and my brain will have to start adapting to that. This journey is not only about defeating porn, It is also about building discipline in all area of my life and being decisive and deliberate about what I truly want, that will make me genuinely happy. I want to use this opportunity to thank you all,on this wonderful site, for the support. It feels good to be fighting this good fight not alone, but alongside you guys. I mean, when I see some numbers here, I'm amazed, and I think/say to myself, "If this person can attain this streak, I can". Lowkey, so many of you guys are my role models, and which I want to be to others too, soon, someday. We rise by lifting others up. Though this is just 1Week, I don't plan on giving up this good fight, not ever. What do we say to PMO, "NOT TODAY!"
Day 1. I am sick of having this pity numbers then relapsing , by the end of the month I want to be counting day 30. Period.
3 days complete! I have decided that I will do the Recovery Nation workshop once again but this time more slowly and deliberately to absorb the material. I am not about to give in to PMO and escalate depression. I have also begun reading my bible again and praying more fervently.