Day 9! Triple of triples! Actually, I'm having some feeling of irritation this day. I'm definetly going to sort it out and get through this day!
i am here for the 90 days no pmo challenge and i willl post my journal everyday and will inform you all about my progress and how it is going ,,, please give you valuable advises and tops to me in my journey ,,, tysm
I have similar experiences. For some reason in the last weeks this video of two lions having sex crept up in Instagram's Search & Explore Feed and suddenly this had a stronger effect on me than I cared to admit. I guess it's normal that when you don't watch sex-related content anymore, anything regarding sex that you see without searching for it tends to have a stronger effect on you? Though I get that you might be a bit freaked out by yourself when you find yourself responding like that to animals - I sure was. I don't think it means that we've suddenly become zoophiles at all
Completed day 31 guys well not feeling well due to some problems but it is not related to p but its affecting me hope it ends soon
Day 39/90. Lately I've been feeling good. Having things go smoothly again with my gf has only helped. I'm getting used to this new routine. During the week I have a lot of time for myself until she comes home and on the weekends, we practically spend every minute together. Another thing that I think was bothering me was that I was gaining a little weight the first couple weeks she was back, after I had lost around 15 pounds the previous two months. Now I'm heading back on track. Maybe that was independent of the problems, but at least everything seems to be going in the right direction.
Day 3 completed. Feeling better as compared to yesterday but have to undertake the long journey of getting back on the track. How easily a moment of madness can ruin everything and bring us to square one? In that moment of madness, our brain stops thinking rationally. That's the key to success in the long run. Thinking rationally in those moments of doubt. And also not to let those negative thoughts transform into a snowball. Try breaking the negative chain of thought somehow. It is very difficult but with practice, we can all be where we want to be. Equally important is the need to empathise with others. It's not only about your success stories but also helping other people fight the addiction. For my own motivation, I'm keeping track of mini-challenges i complete as part of 90 day challenge. Completed mini 3 day challenge.
I think I definitely need to dig into this field. I already found this article by Stringer https://fightthenewdrug.org/jay-stringer-3-ways-healing-can-stop-the-demand/ The paragraphs about a lack of purpose and shame really hit me where it hurts. I've been in this cycle for years now, where I reach 30 day streaks away from NoFap and I feel great, until something makes me slip and I spend weeks, sometimes months where I slip once or twice a week, before I finally manage to get out of that again and manage to stay away from PMO entirely for weeks. Until the 30 day mark, or once the 50 day mark, and I'm back in the mud. Now I'm in that once/twice a week rhythm again. I am making progress, because years ago, a slip back would be going to 4, 5 times a week and much longer and more compulsive sessions. But it's such little progress and I feel like I've stagnated for such a long time now. I have to reach a breakthrough at a deeper level. I have to fix the thinking that keeps me here. I have to fix the hurt that somehow I still think PMO is the answer to. But I don't know how to get there yet.
On day 37 Like i said yesterday, i am in a bad mood. Today i had edging at sexy models on Instagram, even though i rarely visit Instagram. I think the reason was that i was fantasizing an extremely beautiful girl from gym. But thats the problem. I barely talked to her, only for gym stuff, nothing serious. I could press the situation, i didnt and afterwards i had thoughts and was fantasizing her. I had an opportunity to talk to a "real" girl that liked a lot, i didn't talk and instead after i went to see the fake models. I don't like my behaviour hahahah. I think i took my lesson. It was my second edging through this streak, but i decided not to reset because i think the lesson is valuable for the continue. I will try to be more confident at the next opportunities! Good luck!!
BTW I see the link in my previous post with this '****religious content****' filter that I've seen a few times already - in fact, I think somebody in this exact thread recommended that same site to me a while back and I had trouble finding it because of that filter. Is that something that I see because I have a setting somewhere? Is all supposedly religious content blocked on this site for everybody? What's up with that?