I'm sorry brothers. I haven't posted in a while. I've had a tough week and I've been wearing the porn ring. The reason I didn't post is that I was ashamed for not acting the way I should have. But now I realize there's no place for shame in this challenge. First day down and half of the second one. We'll make it together!
Day 23. Today wasn't easy, I almost relapsed, opened a tab... But, before click, I remembered what I want, how I felt when I relapsed, I remembered the effort of many how are in this challenge, people with more than 200 Days! And I remembered the person how inspired me on this journey. Myamoto Musashi, after the battle of Sekigahara, passed 4 years (18-22) studying and training. And between 1604 (22 years old) and 1612 (28 years old) Musashi peregrinated polishing his sword and spirit. During that time Musashi committed to become a true samurai and refused to see the person how he loved while pursuing his goal. What is NoFap near such sacrifice? Not see his beloved one for 10 years! And here I am, struggling because of a bunch of photons. This is truly a shame for me. Such poor will... I promise to my self not relapse until I achieve the 90 days! It may not be the 3660 days of Musashi, nor the 500 days of this challenge, but, because is nothing in comparison I must take that as a obligation, something that I must do if I want to be a man. If I cannot accomplish a promise to myself I am nothing. This is very personal, so I truly don't expect no one see this as a exhortation or a way to say that who relapse is not being serious. This position is actually how I see MY relapses, and MYSELF. The reason why I am writing this in the thread is the very the obvious method of committing in public. (If this text is a bit confusing sorry for my poor English, my native language is not English)
7/500 Good morning guys. Getting started with day 7. Try to be close to nature. Going for a small walk outdoors. Good luck everyone!!!
Keep trying brother. Keep yourself busy in some or the other work. It will help greatly. And stay a bit away from social media. The kind of ads, models, etc. they show acts as triggers. I feel a bit uneasy using Instagram, so not using it since past 1 week. Don't loose hope brother. We will make it
126 days completed Day 127 check in... As now I know how to do Nofap. Now my main focus will be to take total controll on my thoughts and to not think about sex at all. I will not watch any kind of P-Subs intentionally, and if I watched it accidently then I will take my eyes off it asap. The idea is to starve my brain from lust as much as possible. After completing this second stage my third stage will be 'Total Semen Retention' like to completely stop having nightfalls and wet dreams. I know it will take a while to achieve it and path would be difficult but I will give my best.
Well done!! - What are the benefits you have experienced? And are the urges, loneliness, etc.. much easier now?
Well!!! I have completed 30 days!! My last streak was 15 now I have made it till 30 days and it's quite satisfactory and unbelievable for a guy like me! but it's not the end and a lot is to come I have nothing to offer to porn and of course I have become an Elf now so Mr @RiseToGreatness do the honours.....CHEERS!!
Excellent brother. You´re in Rivendell now Congratulations, you´re an Elf!!! Now the Council will debate on the path to Mordor. Take a seat
Day 9: Almost back up to the double digits. Thankfully this week shouldn't be too much of a challenge. My urges are always low during the work week. Also my fiancée has a weekend off with me for once. This means I won't be home alone during the time when my urges are at a peak. We're planning on doing a lot together, so I shouldn't have time to think about PMO. With luck and determination, I'll finally be able to pass the two week mark for the first time in many, many months.
Excellent brother. You took off the PMO ring, breathe the free air my friend Now for wrath and ruin, and the end of the addiction. Good luck!!!!!