day nine i plan 4 thing that i must accomplish in this day - reading - assemble my Model Kit - Doing my project - Sleep <10PM
Guys I'm stuck in a rut. I've been conflicted all week with emotions. I've said do not MO to myself while getting comfortable for the deed, and still proceed. I understand why not to...but I feel lost in belief that it matters. I'm feeling so down, and so much resent towards myself. I can't break free. Relapsed nearly 4' days in a row. I haven't to today but I'm literally afraid of myself.