A girl I hadn't seen in about 8 years contacted me to say hello and see how I was doing. We chatted back and forth for a couple days and I asked if she was a dancer. She said yes and I texted that the shape of her legs and the way she sometimes moved made it apparent. She replied that me remembering the shape of her legs was creepy. I felt a sense of shame on reading that. I need to get away from objectifying and sexualizing women. After responding " that I dont know what to say to that" I deleted the conversation and her contact info. Oh well...On the plus side I abstained another day from pmo. One day at a time.
Day 11 yey! Yes, my streak so far has been very clean all thanks to stopping using instagram a month ago. I used to constantly go to the search bar which brings all these suggestions of images - in my case sexy model profiles that lead to more sexy model profiles, borderline naked women. And you keep lying to yourself - yes but its just pics, yes but they aren't actually naked, there is no sex here - so it's fine... well it really is not fine. Triggers all day, then edging and then M which depending on your case can lead to P. Not worth it dude - you will be much calmer if you don't do that and in my opinion - deactivating your insta at least for a while to get you used to not searching for that - will help you a long way! Best to all of you guys! My daily improvement/inspiration haha
Day 6 done. Really thought about relapsing this morning. But I went to an SA meeting instead. Still feeling that pull though.
Day 8/90 I'm doing well so far. Even with 2021 kind of being on a rocky start for me, I still have not relapsed. At least I know that I'm doing something good.
It will pass. You can resist it. We can remind ourselves of how we feel after a binge. And perhaps more importantly, what other positive things can you do to manage today?
Day 22! Feeling great. Have been struggling recently as I've often noticed myself drifting off into lustful thoughts. I think it's best to face them head on as opposed to occupying my mind with other things just for the fact that they're going to keep coming back over and over again.