Day 43! One day at a time gang let's keep going. Been struggling lately with procrastination with school work and with personal goals, I have all these goals that I want to accomplish but I can't seem to get after them, honestly I've felt a little purposeless lately and don't really know what I'm passionate about.
9/90 Going well. I've not been struggling this time round nearly as much. So what am I doing differently? When lustful thoughts come up, I quickly drop them. Meditation in morning and evening is making this possible. But what harm can lustful thoughts do? Imo, cultivating and sustaining lustful thoughts is like an alcoholic browsing the drinks section of a supermarket. We're much more likely to fail if we do it
Get outside for a walk or go and visit someone. Get moving and active and give your mind something else to focus on. Go to bed early, get up early and try to be productive. If you end up binging, try not to beat yourself up, relapse is part of the process.
Day 1/90 Relapse after relapse. Don't know what has gone wrong. I am the same person who had managed to stand away from porn for 45 days. Now not even able to complete 1 week without M. If it was only M it was okay. But the urge is so strong that every minute I am thinking only about sex. I have a hard time being in the presence of women. Don't know where I am headed...
Day 22/90. Had a good day yesterday just resting and enjoying the day/church. We're also starting a group at church for us porn/sex addicts so that's cool. I love my Thursday group so it'll be nice to have another group on Mondays.
Stay strong bro, relapse is apart of the process. Learn to associate porn with bad feelings, think about how it makes you feel afterwards, it probably makes you feel shame, disgust or even guilty but the main thing is to realize that it's not worth doing because of the negative subsequent feelings it brings.
Day 3/90. No urges for now. Reading a book about Christopher Columbus .. lol. It's very good. On Wednesday I go back to work, I think it will do me good to go back.
having really tough days .. idk how to get out of this rut .. yesterday i decided to get out of this and follow the good habits so i started reading a book and then i slept but i had so much erotic dreams i can't tell u the amount .. and these things is not letting me overcome pmo .. i am almost having the most difficult days in my nofap journey .. i have never faced problem like this .. idk know how to control my thoughts .. one thing due to which i am relapsing so much is procrastination as i don't want to study these days , i don't have that motivation to study . and reason for that i don't want to study is pmo . it's totally linked .. whenever i relapses , i think that the day is ruined and i wait for next day so that i can start everything fresh but then same thing continues .. and now i literally don't know what to do .. but still i am trying but today it's 10 am and i have relapsed and just don't know how to continue .. i am not in the mindset to study hard , work .. i don't know what to do .. i really need some help