[3-CHALLENGE] THE THREE DAYS CHALLENGE !

Lost. Day 0/3 again

 

Day- 2/3

 

2/3
Another battle won

 

Day 2!
I was in big trouble yesterday.
The urge to just lay down and prone masturbate was huge.
I tried deep breathing and it worked.
Was super aware and just fought the battle.

Today I feel like the urges are little bit lower.
The first days are always the hardest.
Lets fucking push!!!

 

I am thinking about going for about 3hour hike to absolutely delete all opportunities to relapse.
On the other hand I should put in some work and its boiling hot outside.

I am after heavy gym workout and it seems to ke that after gym I am always so fucking horny and it was just me in the gym. Didnt see any girl. No idea why I feel so trigerred.

 

Day 0/3
I've relapsed into M today. I still did my routine, and the relapse happened because I felt the urges start this morning. I took some deep breaths, and finished my morning routine, but the urge lingered, and after about 4 hours after it started, I felt like I just wanted to do it to get it out of my system and continue my day. Is there anything I can do if the urge lingers on for this long?
I have been feeling a little anxious, after my porn relapse last week, even though I made it a few months away that attempt (but was still relapsing to masturbation) I was afraid of being right back to where I started- when my addiction was at it's worse, I was relapsing every 2 weeks. Even though it might not be often compared to some, I remember how absolutely awful I felt. This relapse into Masturbation makes me a little more anxious because I don't want to start spiralling down to rock bottom.

 

Day 1/3. Checking in.

 

3/3 challenge cleared.

 

Day 0

 

3/3
Today is a very difficult battle. Urges are strong. Many bad thoughts are popping up. Alone at home for the next 4h and can't leave because I have to work. I'm sitting on the balcony and there are people walking on the streets. Still, my addiction could get me inside. I need to be very careful.

@Dragar Please be careful; now is not the time to underestimate the chaser.

 

@Dragar exactly the same happened to me. Had the thoughts since morning and I made slight mistake of tiny edging and playing with fantasies. Thats how it always start and then the thoughts are unstopabble. I dont know if you also do something like this to get horny even more.

I thought about how to deal with the strongest urges and cold showers (everybody says that) really work for me at least for some time. Also its important to get busy. And the third thing I want to do is picture myself in the future.

I also relapse only to M.
Frankly its still porn fantasies that cause me to M. I would love to unseen some twisted stuff.
I dont know if anyone here can relate but following sums up all my relapses.
I see a girl, usually its in series/add/youtube vid.
I have some visual stuff which is fresh and my fantasies typically start.
Its always submissive in some way.
I think I would be pretty good in writing porn submisive novels

Anyway I honestly have no clue how to break away from my intense fantasies.
You cant get busy all the time.
You cant take 20cold showers a day.

 

The only thing U can think of is to very consciously aboid any potential triggers.
I already dont use instsgram or scroll facebook.
I watch a lot of vids on youtube and there are bunch of vids with sexual thumbnails. I should avoid that for starters. Use spotify for music.

 

Day 0

 

Day 0/3

 

I relapsed again!!!
DAY 0

 

Day 0

 

day 2 and half day

 

Day 1/3
Day 2/3
Was too busy to check in yesterday, but I am here now to check in every day!

 

Day- 2/3

 

Day 0 starts