Finished my LOTR bookshelf diorama! Took a solid 3+ hours, and now when I look at it I can remember my renewed commitment to beating this. Still a filthy orcs, but one who watched Gandalf sacrifice for his friends and thinking maybe the path of good is the one I want to walk. "Porn SHALL NOT PASS!" https://www.dropbox.com/s/ec6wxz1ym55neua/IMG_1431.jpeg?dl=0 https://www.dropbox.com/s/hu4p5inojne7hbb/IMG_1429.jpeg?dl=0 https://www.dropbox.com/s/8wvjdyyl8mvlibh/IMG_1432.jpeg?dl=0
I fell yesterday, but Day 1 is now complete. Still the lowest of the low in the Orc armies, the most wretched filth of Gundabad. A while back I promised myself to begin a more consistent campaign of daily prayer. I've still succeeded in keeping that up, and for a while it was helpful in resisting temptations to PMO, but I've allowed that practice to become routine. Once again, I must take all this to heart.
37 days and -1 days Well guys, time to start all over again. Hopefully I'll not PMO again today or tomorrow.
66 days. Another long workday yesterday, and calm with respect to urges. This journey feels easy right now, so I think it's more important than ever that I stay focused and humble before the challenges that I have been through and the challenges that are to come.
Day 36 Its good now. But in the morning I felt too much sleepy and defficient in energy so after waking up I slept again for about 1 and half an hour. Then I did meditation, some light excercise because was feeling tired and then cold shower. That helped me. But urges were more today. I managed them. Sometime ago I was feeling very satisfied and happy. I need that type of feeling so slowly slowly I am getting this type of result. So bros be on this path...
well, where did you get that number? that is a tonne of time. maybe you don´t need that much. in fact, 2 hours per day is not practical at all for most people. i think is more important the frequency of workouts, than it´s lenght per session. anyways you got to channel the rising energy, that´s for sure, so i hope you find a suitable way for you
An orc is checking in. Feeling good because in a few hours I‘ll have 4 days under my belt. I didn’t manage to stick to OMAD: I didn’t eat until 2pm but I was still doing work and working out. I got headache and I exepted it and went on. But finally (at 4:30 pm) I was totally exhausted. I felt like vomiting. So I drank a big coffee and ate a lot, starting with sugary sweets. At least only one coffee. For tomorrow I only resolve to leave the coffee out (and of course alcohol). Zero coffee - that shouldn’t be that hard
It was a long time since I was here. I'm lost. I don't know what to do anymore. My fantasies are worse and worse. I spent whole days just watching porn and edging. My addiction is so strong, that it destroying my live, goals etc.. I'm thinking about a hooker. Do you think i should sleep with a Hooker? It will mby fix addiction with porn. Help...
Checking in Fellowship. Terrible withdrawal day. i won´t even bother entering in details . screwed up a lot at work. also needed to cancel an appointment because i feel so dumb that i probably would screw up again. Was watching tv, a soccer game today from the olympics, a female game. but i quit when i realised i was just watching the ladies (fishing). Have a good day my friends. Checking out.