Day 8 : It's getting real boring. There was urges, but it's more and more controllable as days gone by... hope so
Almost day 2. Sick intrusive thoughts in my brain Spoiler: trigger and my penis feels weird as if its pulsating. But no more, this too shall pass. I'm done being miserable. I deserve to be happy.
Day 5 in the list!! Feeling good doing my work and focusing on my goals. But still need to overcome overthinking which creating problems in my work.
In the past 97 days I have: * PMO'd 6 times but not fully relapsed * MO'd 1 time but not fully relapsed * Averaging 16.2 days on strict PMO nofap * 0 days straight nofap streak so far PMO'd today. But it was to softcore romantic stuff rather than hardcore stuff. The act I watched was between two individuals doing things in a nice, chilled out, romantic way where the woman was being respected and she was enjoying it without any childish story lines involved. Just two adults. I don't feel guilty or shameful. I will be starting my strict PMO streak again now. I feel a new respect towards the opposite sex. Almost like an entire new world I never knew existed. How short sighted I have been all this time. I feel like I have wasted my entire life due to my misogynistic views. I want to heal my relationship between god and women this year. I am strong minded and I will repair this dysfunctional part of my life.
Day 40 #total_new_habits = 8 #days_of_new_habits = 11/40 very hard to describe my situation now .. kind of excited .. just a bit frustrated .. I am working on a programming project and it is getting nastier .. but . Is not sunshine comes after the darkest part of the night ?? Let's see how it goes .. "Come, come, whoever you are. Wanderer, worshiper, lover of leaving. It doesn't matter. Ours is not a caravan of despair" [/QUOTE]
Day 9 ( Relapsed ) : Damn, that was the longest streak i've ever got I didn't feel much of a difference besides less anxiety and guilt. Energy is more or less the same, probably due to lack of exercise This sucks, the urges caught me off guard again. Time to try again
In the past 98 days I have: * PMO'd 6 times but not fully relapsed * MO'd 1 time but not fully relapsed * Averaging 16.33 days on strict PMO nofap * 1 days straight nofap streak so far
Day 6 in the list!! Urges and negative thoughts were striking me today but i was calm towards them and did my work.
And a new day has begun. day 10 has started and I'm on day 3 of my meal plan and workout schedule. It's tough but also fulfilling to do