Brother as we are together PMO doesn't stand a chance. At this point I remember a quote of Bruce wayne from Snyder's cut
Day 70 - Warrior Riders bring a gift! “My Lord, here is the Horn of Hondor for your assistance”. The Horn of Gondor is an heirloom of the Stewards of Gondor tipped with silver and inscribed with ancient characters. It´s audible at far ranges and summons reinforcements in times of need. Quest Item - Horn of Gondor
Day 38. Since I feel that relapse may be around the corner. I want to say that I never liked when people said to me "It's ok. Just try again.", "Don't feel shame. It happens to everyone.", "No worries, just continue", etc. Such phrases never made sense to me. How is it ok to relapse (watch porn and maturbate)? How is it not shameful to waste good streak for stupid pleasure? Why shouldn't I worry, if I am not able to keep my promises and am a mess without self-control? Even now, yes I feel that relapse may happen. But who would be responsible for that? If I say that "it's ok, it happens", then, in essense, I say that it's body's business and I don't have much free will. But if I have free will to chose and it's my responsibility, how is it not shameful to relapse? Maybe the better word would be guilt... Anyway, it's normal to feel bad after doing wrong thing. I said that blockers should stay on, so shutting them down would be dishonest and wrong. I have a good streak now. It's nothing compared to Baki's and many others in these forums. But still - it's something tangible. I have to be a man and finally take responsibility for my actions. I should stop blaming circumstances, stop making excuses that I am young and horny, stop making excuses that often I am stressed, anxious, lonely, stop making excuse that maybe it's an addiction and I should pmo to relieve withdrawals... So, I say this, if I relapse and waste this opportunity, I am a pathetic loser. Spoiler: Journey stuff Hard mode + no shutting blockers down - day 38. No caffeine (no coffee, tea, chocolate, etc.). Calisthenics workout every Saturday. I can do one additional workout on any chosen day. 15 done.
Day 65. You face difficulties walking though the razor-sharp winding paths of Emyn Muil. A fallen brother named Gollum offers help. He doesn´t seem reliable but he knows the way out of the maze, so you decide to follow him. We keep moving forward.