Pangs to pull up your browser and search for porn are your body's way of saying, "I'm Free From Pornography!". The feeling to want to look at porn is PROOF that your are FREE from pornography. You don't feel the pangs when you are deep in porn, because you are exactly that: Deep in the porn! Embrace the pangs, for they are the body's way of telling you I AM FREE.
Day 16 done, onto Day 17. Locked in, feeling the urges to pull up some porn on my browser but I'm realising that: 1. I am not the urges 2. There is no genuine pleasure in pornography - it's just an illusion 3. My life is so much better now that I am FREE from the prison and ADDICTION of pornography Pornography will either make me or break me, it's an everyday decision to control and keep this ADDICTION in a submissive choke hold. NO going back, I have my whole life ahead of me to live. One session is too much and a thousand is not enough. I'm dialled in, this is it, no turning back and no more negative effects of pornography upon my whole life and being. Let's go <3
Day 17: Wanted to write a quick report before I go to the gym. Urges today, strongest they have been for a couple of weeks. But I had my journal of quotes to help put me back in the position I want to be, to help me see through the "noise" of my addiction pounding on the door to my mind and body and soul. This helped tremendously, and I am so so proud of myself - not only for successfully dealing a major blow to my addiction, but in the fact that my plan of resolve is working!
Day 73 - SPARTAN COMMANDER Keeping this brief. Missed jury duty + urges (medium - high urges) because of this I was considering a relapse. Yeah, it would have been due to frustration because if I don't follow up on my missed jury duty then I have to pay fine of $1500 or possibly jail time if I don't pay. Urges came from fantasizing about some woman and fasting as well. That's it. Amazing, how I would resort to that if I wasn't strong. Fighting and holding on. Let's go Spartans.
COongratulations my friend, You have proved your valor by persisting through these 100 days. Keep up that momentum. GO BEYOND!