I shouldn't have eaten those cooked white beans with oil 3 days ago. Since then I have constantly urges. I hope not to fap which is extremely hard for me currently. I am so dumb.
Hey, it takes more than 90days to heal, the 90days NoFap is just a challenge. It takes 2 years at least to heal from PMO. and after the 90days you'll have symptoms: (PAWS) So you need to be preapred mentally for it ! https://forum.nofap.com/index.php?threads/p-a-w-s-what-are-they-cure-duration.231859/
Don't eat white beans or chickpeas or oily things. Your urges are getting increased within 1 week and this happens to me every time.
Day 69: The Video "Dealing with Sex Desire" on Youtube, especially at the Minute 7:40 to 14:40 piqued my Interest. I can recommend that!
It's not that bad for a chronic condition. It has it's lot of positive points as well, like consuming sweets and getting low fat.
I guess its good that you're getting positives come from it. Keep up the good lass. Let me know if there's I can be of service in (probably not doe since you seem to be doing giga fine.
Day 66: Leave your Mark! Be the peaceful protester, who is standing against the porn industry. To those who were silent against child abuse.
You only can fight against injustice when you start to be honest to yourself. Then you know how important it is, to abstain from porn. You can conquer your abnormal sexual drive level.
Day 65: I am still feeling sad sometimes, when I see couples outside walking hand in hand. I hope I can get rid of my sad and lonely status.
@she-dernatinus Yes I keep watching new Animes. I am currently watching One Piece. Still haven't continued to watch the Anime Monster. And yes it helps alot! :)
Day 64: I wanted to say a Big THANK YOU to @she-dernatinus ,who always questioned my acts. She helped me through tough times. I like you :-)
Day 63: The last couple of days I was always extremely tired. I have to work on my sleeping rhythm. Lets see if this changes too in my life.
We stopped attending school for a period of time due to the pandemic, but now it's because we officially finished our courses.
@she-dernatinus Ah now I understand. I hope and wish all the best. I hope you have suceeded your courses.
Day 62: Yesterday I had my first Wet Dream in my Life. I had Sex with a Black Woman in a lucid Dream. Oh man! https://youtu.be/XUa7S-guPHY
I hope this dream had no relation to your former obsessions. If not, there isn't much to worry about. But be careful, you are at a critical phase, don't succumb to temptations and let this dreams annihilate your efforts.
@she-dernatinus I have read some pages of the book "Your brain on porn" written by Gary Wilson again. And he said to those "real dreams" this: "Vivid dreams seem to be a normal part of the mental housecleaning process of unhooking. Often people dream they are relapsing as the brain tries to activate familiar brain loops, but eventually such dreams fade."
@she-dernatinus No I am very cool with my situation right now. Don't need to worry. There are probably old stresses from these old obsessions. Eventually I am on a long Flatline. Currently I don't have any superficial interests in woman, so that means it will be hard for me to relapse consciously.
@she-dernatinus I think I will beat this addiction, I am pretty sure that I won't get into temptations anymore. There are still no urges coming up. I hope you are okay my friend.
Day 60: Two months of Self Control and Self Mastery!!!! If you have any questions feel free to ask me.
Day 59: The more I abstain from PMO, the more I tend to be angry. Maybe I should transform these aggressive feelings.
