guilt

OK so ever since day 80 or so I've been having sexual dreams and fantasies in the morning that are normal (involve women and are not fetish related) and so I think some semblance of a healthy sexuality is coming back to me, but it is still constrained by pmo addiction, case in point, I woke up...

The addict feels guilty. It's a cycle he's been a part of many times. Perhaps he had already promised himself that he would never return to this place. But he returned. This gives rise to a sense of anguish and hopelessness. This creates a need for additional sexual activity that will help the...

Hey guys, girls and partners of nofappers I have some questions about how to bridge the gap between openness and honesty, and hiding tendencies from your partner. I have been battling back and fourth within myself about telling my girlfriend of a year and a half about when I’m not doing so...

Hello there, to whomever happens to be reading this. I'm sea and well, I live quite an alright life actually. I'm doing stuff on my day to day, I got good friendships and a nice relationship, goals in my life are getting accomplished and I'm alright mostly. However, ever since I was a kid, I...

19f. I think this could be considered NSFL, not sure. I don't really know what I want with this post. Maybe just to vent to people that understand. I know this is a long post but please read it, I'm desperate for any sort of help at this point and it doesn't look like therapy is an option for...

Hello, My name is Jake and I am currently 16 and have been fapping since 11-12. In a few hours I will have finally reached the goal of 90 days NoFap. Unfortunately most of these days of NoFap I have been pretty miserable because I can’t forgive myself for what I fapped to in the past and it...

Please help me. I am stuck and can't break from this cycle of guilt and lust (towards porn). I try, but every time I am overpowered by the urge to get a quick relief, get it over with as the imagery keeps on disturbing my thoughts my focus in whatever I am doing, only to fall in a deep dark well...

Hi, I am new to this forum and wasn't sure whether this thread should go here or in Problematic Sexual Behavior. Please let me know or simply move it if I chose wrong. Thanks Does anyone have words of advice or input? Or been through something similar?

Hi, I was just wondering if anyone has had the experience of being publicly shamed or had their online nudes/fetishes discovered? I belonged to an online site allowing users to share nude photos and chat etc., essentially an erotic instagram. I had been posting there a few years and express...

Hi, guys İn the last relapse, i watched some transwoman masturbation porn and i masturbate to them and there were scene i didn't masturbate to it but it was disgusting, so i was Skipping it till it ends because i feel i couldn't close it and i was still reading the name of the scene to be sure...

Hey guys, I have struggled with PMO, MO and P fantasies since I was a teenager (I am actually 25). During all this time I didn´t think I had a problem. I just thought it was something common, something every of my friends do. Nevertheless, during quarentine, and specially this year where I have...

I relapsed again mates. And this is the 4th time i relapsed since I joined the community. It really worries me that my first streak was the longest steak of 7 days, and since then I haven't been able to cross that. Has my motivation to NoFap reduced with time since I'm trying to do it...

Still do kind of. So much so I can't even write out all the details of my issue. The shame is so powerful I can't be entirely forthright with you here anonymously. I think I could admit it all to a therapist but I have no plans on seeing one. I mean I have admitted it before to one and it made...

My girl leaves in another city & we can't have regular sex often. We sometimes do virtual sex. But it's basically just a masturbation under supervision. She's not a seduction expert and she doesn't know how to drive me to pleasure. I am quite polyamorous and she's very jealous and superstitious...

What i have found is the best benefit of NoFap, is that i don’t have a double life anymore. Before I had a double life and kept my life secret from everybody. I was very ashamed of my habit. Due the shame I didn’t maintain close friendships or began an relationship, was very closed as a person...

I’m struggling to come to terms with the person I was before recovery. I see the damage I’ve caused my wife every single day and the guilt I feel is overwhelming. I’m trying to be a better person and a better husband and I’m cleaning, cooking more, trying to get into shape, talking openly about...

I was clean for 400 days and then relapsed (3 months ago) since then i always keep relapsing after a week or two.. I just relapsed again with porn and orgasm. Help guys, i feel like shit again I felt amazing this entire day and now that i fapped again it got worse. Worst relapse I've had today

I've been struggling recently because of guilt and shame over how extreme the porn I used got over the years. I've started getting much better at avoiding porn altogether, but now that I've started getting my life back on track, I'm beginning to see how my past actions might affect me. In the...

Picture yourself sitting at an empty table. Now add a good friend, real or imagined, sitting by your side. Maybe add one or two more. Guys you know and trust. You just know they care about you, want you to be happy, competent and strong. They accept you the way you are with your quirks and...

The girls of past, The brightest sparks, Yet made me feel so hollow, The cause of this a search away, The cause of so much sorrow, I know it’s wrong, It is well known, It wounds me like my knife, How is it I get pleasure, From corruption of a life? But still I go, I can’t resist, The...

Last night my wife went to hang out with some friends of ours from work (we work together). Since she was going to be with them I decided to go to my buddies house to chill with him. He frequently smokes weed and almost always does when I'm over there. My wife and I were both raised in a very...

I've been practising NoFap for about 6 months now, and I have only been able to reach 17 days. A big reason for my relapses is the shame I feel about myself. I want to shift from feeling ashamed about who I am, and instead feeling guilty from my actions, and being able to detach myself from...

Hi guys, I've been addicted do porn since I was 16 years old, today I'm 29. It all began when I started to have acess to high-speed internet. I remember back then, when I was in high school, all my classmates were going to parties and started dating with girls, and on the other hand, I was just...

I'm tired of PMO-ing every time I feel guilty or see something provocative. My inner critic is TOO LOUD. I'm 31 and cannot shut these thoughts. Guilt from staring a bit longer at a woman, guilt from procrastination, being late to a social gathering, not answering someone's phone call or message...

My wife knows everything about me. We have a complete open door policy. But I don't know how to tell her that I relapsed long ago after telling her I was off it (over 3 years ago) and been battling ever since. Now I've joined NoFap but posting in secret makes me feel even more guilty. Help...

I'm writing this to all the people new to NoFap and those struggling to make meaningful progress on your path to recovery. I hope this advise will help you at least to some extend. Try not to look at NoFap as a x number of days challenge, but rather as stepping and walking on your path to...

For the past 7 days I’ve been going strong without PMO, the problem is 3 days ago I was getting flashbacks of when I did some not so good things. When I first turned 17 i had a 39 day streak going until a sudden urge hit me. But it was different, I wanted something different. The different thing...

I admitted to my wife that I'm addicted to porn on Saturday night. Since then, it's been a struggle for the two of us to communicate, and it feels like every time we have spoken, some new piece of information to her has emerged that has pushed her even further away. The result of this is that I...

Hi Fellow Fapstronauts, I’m 33 and have been married for nearly four years, in a relationship for five. I have two daughters. Last weekend at a friend’s wedding I got extremely drunk. I remember trying to have sex with my wife in our hotel room one minute, and the next thing I knew I was on...

hi . I am new here . i have been suffering with porn addiction since a very long time . it has literally destroyed my life . I have a very low self esteem and I find it hard to socialize because i am so ashamed of my self ...

Ever since I was very young I have watched porn. I began watching at a very young age and have grown to rely on it whenever I'm bored, depressed, lonely, etc. I've also experienced a lot of sexual repression due to me being gay and very closeted. In the last year my porn habits have gotten...

So i'm still trying to break the habit, and i have relapsed multiple times. But i feel like i am having more trouble with guilt and shame rather than trying to not relapse. Just thinking about fapping to all that disgusting porn that i did makes me horrified. Every time i feel somewhat good, i...

I started masturbating when I was 11, after I discovered that it would alleviate the built up sexual energy that kept getting stronger and stronger as a pre-teen. Soon after, it became a regular thing, and it has been for the last 15 years of my life. At first, I didn't think much of it. I...

Beautiful wife. Good sex life. Great kids. Involved in church. Connected to real friends I confess my sins to, including porn use. I'm the model of a Christian guy who has it together, right? WRONG Get dirty, confess, rinse, wash, feel clean, resolve. Get dirty, confess, rinse ... You get the...

Now that I am becoming clean of the addiction, I read and I learn more about the backgrounds of pornstars and prostitutes. So today I opened my app Brainbuddy and I read the downside of pornography: For viewers, pornography can appear to be a fantasy world of pleasure and thrills. For those...

I’m only 15 years old, so pretty much I’m filled with hormones. All 15 year olds are pretty much really horny, but I’ve been felling really weird because of nofap. I still feel aggressive, strong and I do alot of boxing so I feel like my testosterone is fine. Doing nofap for 10 days now, I’ve...

Hello. I have been in the cycle from 12 years of age, and today at the age of 26, find myself riddled with security complexes and absurd fears. It’s become late to understand the downside of this vicious cycle and I really need urgent help. I wish to get accountability partners and Nofap...

Hi! This is my second post. I would like to thank the community for all the support I recieved on my first post. To recap : I was a very bright student but my brain sort of went into a hibernation. I cannot remember what I read even 30 seconds back and I couldn’t do the simplest of tasks. Please...

Hi fellow fapstronauts, I'd like to ask you if you have experienced and how you resolve feeling of guilt during your reboot. I've met with my old college mate today. She has a lot of things going on in life, nice partner, career in law, great social life... I couldn't help myself but to become...

Looks like i am stuck in this shit, i tried again and again to fap to 'average' porn to forget the hardcore porn flashbacks, but of course without much success, also if i only see a thumbnail of hardcore porn the images keep stuck in my mind, that is the time when a try to fap to softer shit to...

Okay I have a big problem that eats up my time, exhausts me emotionally and ruins my day, it does not let me study either. Three types of OCD right now absolutely wrecking my life. First type: Hit and run OCD. Ive been having this on and off for a few years but its gotten worse now. Simple way...

Hi guys this is my first post on the forum and i'm really glad i made it here. Finally found out that there's these groups of people like me who has a lot of support on those new and who had experienced my experience that is now conquering the struggle. I'm 17 years old but i really want to be a...

I just 'relapsed' from masturbating. But is it the masturbation that is making me feel so shitty, or is it the guilt?

Hi, everyone I am a newbie to the concept of NoFap. My longest streak and that too at the first trial was 30 days(felt really proud about that). Since my relapse after the first trial, I have never been able to reach up to that mark, have read posts here also about relapse and motivation and...

I feel super guilty after relapsing. Sometimes it sticks with me for more than one day! It really bugs me...Can everyone share their ways of dealing with setbacks? Moreover, when the urge comes, it seems super strong and like the only thing that I need and want. When I go on without masturbating...

I bought this computer for fap only purposes months ago. Its so weird having it back in the house knowing that this machine helped in destroying not just my relationships with people,but myself in general. Its sad and depressing to think what pmo did to me. I hope this sadness is enough for me...

hey y'all New member, 24. I've been a former depression patient and I still experience generalised anxiety slightly. I started NoFap to curb my anxieties and gain self confidence; things that were badly missing from my life. I could not assert myself, could not approach girls, be extremely...

PMO can make you a slave to your own desires. It can encourage you to view other people as sexual objects, to be used for your own gratification. I know this because I got sexually involved with a married man during my PMO stage. I know I would never have done this without PMO. I am not proud of...

Hey guys, I'm 24 years old, I live in Cape Town, South Africa and I'm heavily addicted to porn. I can't go a whole day without watching porn and masturbating at least once, but often it can be as many as five times. I spent the majority of my undergraduate degree locked away in my room wasting...

Hi again folks, anyone here experienced intrusive thoughts when fapping? like sexual images who you don't want to think during orgasm? i feel like i need to fap again until i orgasm without having the thoughts again, if i don't do this 'ritual' i have no will to do anything, also i feel i cn't...

I am struggling with this OCD long time ago, now every porn i see seems way to wrong and i try to relapse to soft things to 'clean the mind' man i feel lost in the point of the journey :( I feel way more guilty and ashamed than before, i don't know if this is good because in the end i will find...

Hi all This is a long thread because I feel it is important to share the background. I am married to the love of my life. She is my everything and my soul mate. We have been married for 4 years and together for a total of 7 years. We have had a good relationship and both genuinely love each...

Do you agree?

This is jut in my experience, if you relapse don't immediately start think about tricks and how avoid relapse in the future, give you some time to relax and cool down your fuses, good journey guys

I have been addicted to pornography on and off since I was a mere 9 years old. I think that being introduced to porn at such a young and vulnerable age really scarred my brain permanently . Starting off with softcore porn did not last long as my brain would always want to shift to something new...

Like intruse sexual thoughts that you don't want to think?

I have been reading more and more posts lately it seems about people who feel ashamed about watching fetish porn, violent porn or whatever have you, yet feeling ashamed doesn't get you any closer to being free. Now you may be thinking "meanbean70, you can't just stop feeling ashamed. That's not...

Me neither, so keep your streak.

Greetings fellow Fapstronauts, My name is Zigfried. I'm addicted to porn. I feel like this all started at a young age - like I was primed to become a porn addict or something. I was awkward, skinny, and shy and my parents had instilled in me the sense that sex was wrong. My father must have...

Hello dear people, first of all I want to say sorry for all grammar mistakes. I'm from Germany. I posted a thread a few months ago. My plan was to abstain from porn but I struggled and continued to watch porn. I would not say that I'm addicted to porn. I don't watch porn a long time (just...

Ive allowed myself to slip back into pmo yet again. It's time to stop once and for all. The guilt and shame it brings refreshed my motive to want to curb this demon for good this time. I've put blockers on again and locked them. Day 1 hard mode...let's do this! Fuck you porn!

Hey everyone i wanted to ask about sleep. So I've been addicted to porn and masturbating since i was 8. So one way this has manifested is when i sleep i fantisize until i either masturbate or watch porn. I'm on my first full day of rebooting but last night i woke up horney as heck. My other...

Hi nofap community...this is the 1st time I have joined a community to help with my addiction. Started when I was around 10 and was always an easy target for porn. 25 yeARS have passed. I guess I have been fighting it since 18 but really intensely for the last 8 years. Managed to have good...

Look I don't know where this will take me. I've tried before two years ago and slipped. I've never actually done this properly. Let's try it out for once. Doing this shit properly. I am stronger than this shit, it's just videos and pictures. No PMO'ing until NEW YEAR starting now. Anyone that...

I honestly don't want to quit masturbating. Because it isn't that bad and the high is great. It just makes me feel down when i feel this huge guilt and shame after i've masturbated for no apparent reason. I am just looking for tips here. What do you think is the solution? How to replace the...