trauma

If not I understand, but please point me to the right place to do some writing and get some feedback. I have a history of sexual exposure/trauma that I am trying to work through so I can beat this disgusting, evil habit, and need a place to write and get feedback and encouragement. I'm also...

I slipped and watched one video today… I instantly thought this is disgusting and just not something I want to continue watching, it’s a waste of time. The girl was beautiful and guys were just total A-Holes.. My heart actually just sunk for the first time. Why do the beautiful fall to...

Hi friends, I've read a lot of books and articles about this in hopes of overcoming it. I came across different theories and approaches. One approach is 1. This is an addiction. It's a serious thing. You are partly not to blame as it's an addiction. And it was caused by trauma. The second...

I am a 17 year old boy, and I started with autoeroticism very early. as a child, around 6-8 years of age, I fantasized about my classmates. I started masturbating when I was 9 or 10, I don't remember. it wasn't anything exaggerated, maybe once a month, then through adolescence (14 years old)...

Hello guys, so somehow since last week when I had a big relapse I am relapsing again and again. I also seem to develop a sissy and trans addiction, I text with some random girls about anal stimulation and anal sex which is performed on me with a girl with a strapon or even a guy. So basically...

(I apologize if this post offends anyone or is in the wrong forum category. It is not my intent to do any harm or to offend. I only want my experience to be shared and to help others.) Hello everyone, I'm new here and I want to talk about trauma and its correlation to pornographic material...

I am a 28 year old male living in Australia. I have been abusing porn since 2009. It started off as a fascination but soon took hold of my life like a drug I need. I mainly used porn to escape reality. The dopamine spikes I was receiving from porn felt like it was super potent for me. Had I...

Day 30. Happy to be here. I feel a good shift in my mindset and thinking. 1) I don’t deny that there can be physically attractive ‘bait’ in both real life or online, but unlike before this does not impel or compel me to M 2) abstinence has taught me that most of the women who appear as ‘bait’...

Hey guys, I'm new to NoFap. I'm here to share my story which I bet, would be the most interesting story ever. For the preview, I'm a gay male, 31, who never had proper sex because, I gave up on my sexuality, romantic relationship, and any intimacy. I'm an Asian born in such a conservative...

All my life i've had issues with excessive masturbation. In childhood, I had severe sexual, emotional and physical abuse by my father(luckily there is a no contact form set by court) and i havent seen him since i was 6. I don't know whats wrong with me. I did it alot at school(middle of class...

I am currently doing a study on the role trauma plays (if any) on individuals that develop ED/PIED symptoms. Once I have this information, I plan to release a post with all my findings - and a comprehensive guide on: a) the true nature of PIED/ED b) the cause of PAWS symptoms...

19f. I think this could be considered NSFL, not sure. I don't really know what I want with this post. Maybe just to vent to people that understand. I know this is a long post but please read it, I'm desperate for any sort of help at this point and it doesn't look like therapy is an option for...

I want to try and stop jerking off completely, and I have some questions: 1) I jerk off at least once a day (This November is an exception since I am attempting NNN). Is masturbating 1x a day okay/healthy? 2) I find that my jerking off might be unhealthy since I use it as a coping mechanism to...

I'm desperately seeking advice, since I can't talk about my story with anyone. I recently started therapy but I don't trust them enough to talk about this topic yet. So if anyone has some knowledge or any advice please help me out. I try to keep it short. There are a handful of memories that I...

It may only help me to ease my mind but I'll go for it. About a month ago (~13.5.22), after binge session that lasted about an hour and a half, I saw that my penis had a lot of red capillaries, it was a benting left more than usual and had 2 lumps and of course it hurt. I went to an urologist...

Hello dear fapstronauts, I'm 25 male. Today relapsed after 5 days of streak. But this time unlike previous times I'm not binge watching or depressed instead i have found out where I'm going wrong. My story goes like this. I was a good looking kid, smart, well behaved ever since I was a young...

If you can't address the trauma, then you can never truly get rid of the addiction. It's simply a self-medicating mechanism to cope with emotional pain. I have been an addict since I was 13 years old and I'm 21 years old now. I completely understand the mechanisms of addiction and I have been in...

Hi pals, I am a 24 y/o male with the goal to end my unhealthy relationship with MO. About two years ago I was sexually assaulted by another man leading to a long journey of therapy and a PTSD diagnosis. I was/am using MO to self-soothe and ease some of the harsh memories, but sadly, was not...

Hey guys, I just have to write down what's going on with my views on relationships... Fair warning, this turned out to be a long post! I started using porn around 10, figured out it was problematic like junk food at 25, and am now at 31 with much less porn use, but I still use it. In school I...

Hi, I’m new here. My husband and I have been together for 10 years almost. I first found his hard drives full of porn and computer history and everything else that it made me spiral into once I was triggered into investigation mode about 9 years ago. It’s been about 7 years since I first asked...

Nf day 14. I have had wet dreams 5 times throughout this 14 days. 2 today and 3 more than a week ago. Never got them in my previous streaks. I am having pe since i started nf. Also have ed but i do get morning woods. 80% hard. I'm always in flatline. My wet dreams arent like your normal wet...

** TRIGGER WARNING ** I just signed up five minutes ago. I don't know if I'm allowed to post stuff here or not. I didn't read over all the rules or even go looking for them. I'll just assume if this is inappropriate someone will just delete it. I need to get my story out there. FEMALE WITH A...

Hello all, I’ve lurked on this site for a number of years but I’m tired of being in the shadows so here I am. This is a long post and I hope I will be forgiven for that. I feel a need to tell my story, partly for selfish reasons but also in the hope that it may be helpful to others here, as it...

I don't know whether this is the right place to post this, but fuck it. I originally got into PMO through roleplaying online (I was around 14) where I would lie about my age/gender to roleplay with older men and women. I knew that what I was doing was wrong, so I compulsively hid it from my...

I I have never been someone who is comfortable with sharing what I've been through but seeing as how no one here knows who I am I take comfort in that anonymity. I have been heavily addicted to porn for years... I was also sexually, verbally and physically abused by my father. Masturbation...

Hello. Firstly I would like to put a big TRIGGER WARNING on this post due to the dark, disturbing and explicit nature of my story. I really do not wish to upset, trigger or offend someone. This is the first time I am seeking help in a space like this, and I am very nervous in many ways, thank...

I would recommend watching Part 1 and 2, I think most of us will be able to relate to the issues discussed on there, and to the guys struggling. I think they discuss some interesting points, and explore different perspectives on what exactly the addiction is. How control is a part of it, but...

Hello everyone and first thank you so much for creating this community which I'm very greatful to have found. I'm new here, and am looking for advices or any kind of ideas/support. This post might be a little long, sorry in advance for that. But I'm struggling. And I can't keep up with those...

Anybody here using NoFap to heal from a sexual injury ? Or Trying to heal from not feeling good enough for another ? Or Trying to erase using masterbation as a coping mechanism ? You are not alone

Hola, soy nuevo en la comunidad, tengo 52 años, y me gustaría que alguien me aconsejara, antes de contar mi historia, quiero decir que a pesar de esto, me siento afortunado, porque tengo una familia y unas amigas y amigos que me quieren de verdad, porque yo lo siento, y tampoco padezco una...

Hello everyone, New to this site. Mostly new to the idea of sharing my life with strangers. COMPLETELY new to the idea of sharing my porn addiction with anyone. Very long story short, childhood trauma and sexual abuse early in my life, including a disgusting family member who introduced me to...

I recently read an article by Robert Weiss , where he classified porn addicts into two categories : (1) Traditional Sex Addicts with a Porn Problem & (2) Digital-Age/Conditioned Porn Addicts First category is trauma based , same as we see in people struggling with alcohol addiction/ drug...

So not too long ago I just started seeing a counselor. If you never read my past threads, I come from a family full of verbal and emotional abuse (non physical). The stress of that, combined with the stress of my porn addiction lead me to convincing my verbally abusive dad to let me go to...

Hey everyone, just came out of a crazy couple of few days. New to the community and started my journey to change my life around 10 days ago. I just wanted to tell you guys how i overcame one of my biggest living nightmares. i was suppose to be on chill spring break for 10 days with family but my...

Hey, Uhm..my name is Evan and I just signed up here. My english is not the best but bear with me. So.. when I was young this one thing happened and I seriously believe it affected and defined, to some degree, my sexuality. I was out in my yard, playing, when I saw a man walking on the street...

Quite a subject eh? Struggling to find the correct place for this, but feel it needs to be part of a reboot as it seems to be inextricably linked to our identity as sexual beings - well it is for me at least. When I say trauma I don't necessarily mean anything hugely abusive - but I am...

Hi, everyone. I've made it 9 days and I'm already noticing the positive benefits. There are a lot of them and I'll make another post for that, but for now, here's a little about me and my addiction. I have a very addictive personality. Part of it, at least, is inherited. I have many alcoholics...