Days 8 and 9/21. Yesterday I had much to do and did not pass by this place. I'm sorry. We're already on the 9th. Now I enjoy my condition ... Everything is going well. I have not had orgasm in 18 days. I myself am surprised. We continue day by day. No hurry.
Day 2 / 21 finished. It was a rough day. I had much to do so I managed to keep my thoughts focused to what I was doing. What I have discovered is that as days go by without P&M, the will of denying them becomes stronger. Thought process follows new logic paths for staying clean. This doesn't mean it is easy. Baits are all over, optical stimuli trigger the brain ruthlessly. The "war" is still on
Another update today. Had a really hard day so it is important for me to write it all and remember the hell I went trough. It will remind me how stupid it would be to relapse after doing all this. After that struggle in the morning, I had one more very powerful urge. Dealt with in the same way like I did with the first one. It wasn't easy, but there was no other way. Having very few urges from the beginning of this journey and flatline were good, if Day Count is the only thing I cared about. But they have actually made me weaker because I did not have enough opportunitys to practice with strong urges. I have forgotten how difficult this journey can be from time to time. Like I wrote earlier, lack of sleep always triggers me to do stuff I do not want to do! As some of you already know I am limiting my internet time to 2 hours per day. 2x 1 hours season (but most of the time I spend even less time online). However, as my brain wanted it's fix, it did everything in its power to convince me to relapse. I have stopped gaming at the same time I have started this streak (I am a gaming addict so this is big for me too). 2 weeks ago I have also stopped randomly browsing the internet and the only website I am using is this one. There is no novelty and no excess dopamine released. My brain is desperate to get it's fix. But...I am not giving up. Practiced Four Step even with urges to "relapse" on my limited internet time. My brain wanted it's fix and it tried to convince me it's fine to break my internet rule for today. Here are some of the thoughts: "Well, I can break my internet rule and to something productive. Find a new book to read, or something else. It's ok, it won't hurt my progress. To be perfectly honest, I was on a verge of breaking that rule for today. But, just a second before reacting to those thoughts I have decided to try with the Four Steps... Step 1: Thinking about breaking my internet rule, wanting to spend more time online Step 2: This is the result of the bad brain wiring. My brain want's it fix desperately. This is not not me, it's just the brain! Wise Advocate: It won't be the first time you break your internet rule promising to yourself that you will do something productive and good. But you never did that! If you actually break your rule you will spend most of the time on NoFap forum. That is pretty much the only reason you want to break your rule. You want to see if there are any notifications. Doing that will give you a quick fix. That's what you addictive brain is seeking right now so desperately. You have already deprived it of games, porn, and masturbation. Don't make this mistake again, please try playing some Brain Games and see how it goes. I did just that. And it has worked extremely well once again! This is my favorite game, it requires my focus and attention. One game last's for 3 minutes. And I only need to play 2-3 games until my addictive brain calms down and see it's not going to get it's fix. Here is the game:
That's the spirit! Do you have any plans for the future? Once we finish this challenge it would be nice to stay in touch with all the people who wrote here daily. How about opening a thread for people who have successfully completed all 3 of your challenges? It would be kinda cool
When the ride is smooth we tend to forget how difficult this can be from time to time. Those difficult days serves as a reminder.
as times go by, people (therefore customers) tend to show their worst face. It is some kind of a sign of our times. No patience, no feelings, only ego thinking, accordingly acting. No worries!
Hi everyone, Today is 6 Days out of 21 Days! Tomorrow marks a week! Total: 27 Days, tomorrow 28 Days! Still in deep flatline! I have no idea how long this flatline will last. There’s no way I can’t relapse. My penis is basically dead. Not a single erection today. Urges: minimal I’m pretty sure I’ll reach the month mark and should be able to finish the 21 Days challenge then moving on to the 28 Days challenge. I still have urges but I’m learning how to ride it out. Research says that urges usually last only 10 minutes. Flatline is pushing me further into this now Stay Strong!
