Understand completely. I was asking something else though, if you were planning on joining the 90 day challenge, or something else. Love that movie!
56/60 The milestone is in sight and I can taste it. That will make me a third of the way there for my next target which is the 90. I would say overall it's been fairly smooth sailing with a couple of exceptions. This exceptions have been attached to the desire for distraction when my mind and emotions meet everyday/professional challenges. I've come to recognize that in addition to my childhood causes for my addiction I think the need to run away from something difficult can really fuel the PMO desire. So I've had two episodes including one in the last 24 hours where the yearning to relapse has forced itself into my emotions. The overall goal though to be free is still much more powerful. I will say also that I have an amazing wife that makes this all so much easier. She is a big part of my "why" for resolving this. I can appreciate those who I read here who do not have a partner can feel alone at times with this. Hats off to you if you're doing this journey alone. My challenge I think would be much harder. That said the ultimate why has to be that you want it for yourself. Not because of someone else. It's important that I do this with my wife in mind but I feel that this has to be about me. Changing the want in myself for something greater and more powerful than the escape and momentary feeling of joy that you can get with PMO. More than that temporary feeling of joy I want to eliminate that shame and feeling of defeat and being trapped that comes with PMO. To be free is everything.
Day 22/60. I've been staying mostly offline and screen-free for the holidays, so racking up the current streak has been easy lately. The stress of the holidays causes a lot of relapses, or so I've read, so I've been avoiding the temptation. Works for me, and I've had a pretty good Christmas.