Day 3/60 complete. Had a good day overall! Wanted to escape the boredom with entertainment but instead I went and played outside instead.
Day 4/60 complete. Had a good day overall! Mentally, I'm letting this girl go who I was obsessing over. Helping me so much that was killing me and I knew it but it's so hard to let go when you want it so bad. On a side note, didn't sleep enough so today may be rough. We will see how it goes.
1/60. I am an addict. Every day is a blessing. No matter how bad of day I am having, relapsing is not going to change my bad day. I have to stop nursing myself with porn. I have to let go of notions of control and just be. I am in control of my actions and that is it. Fuck porn. Fuck human trafficking, Fuck the manufacturors. Fuck youtube. Fuck social media. Those motherfuckers are destructive. I will not be broken. Those motherfuckers must be broken not my spirit, not my will. Those motherfuckers will break before I do. I will fall obviously, both those mother fuckers arent going to keep me down. I refuse to be remember as the person who lost everything because of this shit. thanks im pat.
Thanks for sharing Pat! Day 5/60 complete. Had a good day overall! I was just myself the majority of the time and it was good. I am recognizing that I need to address the fear of wanting to look good to others. No. Just be myself and they can like me or not. I don't want to act like a puppet anymore.
